Here’s one that I was going to write about last year before I started writing with frequency again.

I ended up putting it aside and kind of moved on but now that I’ve been doing a fair bit of studying over the past few days it seemed appropriate to get this knocked out now.

Uni lectures are lost on me. I’m not sure as to why.
I understand all the words and what they mean. I have context.
I don’t absorb all of it.

I sat at my dining table for roughly four-and-a-half hours taking notes from a lecture that is just under two hours today (all the lectures are recorded).

HOW DO PEOPLE TAKE NOTES SO FAST?!

Are they genetically engineered to take notes faster than I?

I’d like to believe that is the case, but I know it to not be the truth.

I know that the kids doing stats are just faster than I.

I’m still quite young myself but there is such a great difference between how I do things and how the people a few years younger than I do things that I may as well refer to them as kids.

Well, it’s really because they’re younger than I but that has nothing to do with this.

Maybe it does.

I don’t know.

Anyway, I’m going to have to read my notes over and over and over as whilst I enjoy learning, the lectures aren’t penetrating my mind as well as I believe they should.

I imagine they will eventually but for now it’s leaving me feeling bewildered most of the time.

My mind is picking things up and then immediately throwing them out as suddenly new information appears whilst telling my hands to write faster but my hands can’t move fast enough (yet).

I can’t blame the lectures for being dense with information as I think they have a good amount. My lecturer provides the information well and I’m seldom confused about what is being said.

Maybe it’s how stats operate. You’re not meant to keep up or know. You’re just meant to do.

Maybe that means that the lectures are preparing us in the best way possible and that my not-absorbing all the information is key to my success as I will end up the best student of statistics of all time.

Well, I can dream.

I do like statistics and I don’t mind knowing that I probably will have to work with it for the rest of my life, despite my life path leading away from working as a statistician.

I don’t like how I seem to be unable to take anything from the lectures.

With that being said, I’m certain I absorb a lot more than I realise and I’m being somewhat unrealistic about the whole thing. Reading my notes will help a lot and I’ll gradually retain more and more information from the lectures as time goes on.

It’s going to be a lengthy uphill struggle until that point though.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 20:40:68

Slower than last time.
I didn’t realise how much I had to think about what I was writing until after I started, so that’s my own fault.

Hopefully faster next time.