End of June Update

Posted on June 30, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

So… how’s everyone been?

Feel I should explain the way things have been. Essentially I burned right out and have been slowly getting back on my feet.

That explains it quite well, actually.

So I’d planned to wrap things up before heading off to Melbourne for a few days, then the day before and that fell through. Then I planned to wrap things up as soon as possible and that fell through. I was making progress, but I hit a wall and stopped. I kept telling myself that I should keep getting things done to get the end done, but I couldn’t bring myself to do much of anything.

I’ve done very little over the last two months. Barely any writing, and whilst I’ve gotten some things written, I’ve felt very much like I’d forgotten how to write. How to put words together. How to talk about music. How to construct nonsense.

I’ve been out and about. I’ve gone driving to visit people, and I’ve done some things and had passion, but it’s been tough. The rest has been needed, that’s for certain, but it has been rest without recovery. I’m not feeling like I’m recuperating. At the same time, I am feeling rested. I’m feeling like I’ve a bit more energy.

Beyond that, I’ve tried to take better care of my mental health. It’s slow going, but it’s going, and other than how I felt about being able to write, it is getting better. Maybe. We’ll see.

Too many years of relentless pushing on when I should have spaced things out a bit more have hit me hard, but I’m dusting myself off. Hopefully I can get everything wrapped up in the next few weeks. We’ll see.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1606: Waiting Game

Posted on May 22, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

Currently playing the waiting game. That is, a game of waiting. I’m waiting for someone to get back to my office so I can head off for a meeting. Sure, I could head off before they get back, but that would be mean. Someone is going to be here. They’ll need assistance. Someone needs to be here for them to receive assistance. Such is the way of things as they happen, or as they might happen. So I wait. I wait and I hope, and I hope that I will be able to get to things on time.

The music that I’m listening to is slow, calm, and highly repetitive, and it goes beyond… far beyond what is necessary to get the point across. I suspect it’s meant to be some sort of mediative or reflective music, but it just keeps going. It doesn’t end. It goes on for far longer than it should. Maybe background music. I don’t know. Wallpaper music.

Music music.

But I’m sitting here. I’m tired. I’m worn out. I need rest badly. I had some last night and I am still puckered out. It takes time. It takes discipline. It takes many cycles and many moons, and you keep trying. You keep on trying to get the rest you need, and you don’t stop. You don’t give up.

I have mixed feelings today. Things are alright and I feel a bit down. Such is life. I’m thinking about my ex and wondering if she’s okay. The last I saw, she wasn’t. It’s not my business anymore, however, and I like it that way. I prefer it that way. It still hurts, but I’m not lingering. Or I am, but I’m not dragging myself down so much anymore.

I am floating through a world that’s cold and still, and calm. Like currents moving about, moving around, finding their way around me, and I feel the motion. I feel it all happening, flowing, and I float there, I float in calmness, in sound and silence, and I wonder to myself about what is coming forward from my fingers. I wonder about the world that I am creating, the imagery that I am spinning. I want to embrace a calm, a quiet, and that is what I’m trying to summon, I guess. That is what I think is happening, but maybe I’m not really sure. Maybe I’m not sure of myself or what I am doing, but there are always ways to find out. There are ways to look at what I am currently doing and looking to see where everything falls and all that sort of thing. You know how it is.

But space is compacted and it feels like it’s just enough. It feels just right, and maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t. I don’t know and I don’t know if I care to find out. The day is drifting, finding its way through barren branches and thickened skies, and I’m just another spectator, carried along.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:16:89

Fatigue again. Fun times.

Anyway, this is a writing from Yesterday. It sort of came in waves, if that makes sense. I think it works in parts and not in others, but overall this is a smooth bit of writing.

Written at work.

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Keep Left

Posted on May 17, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

I took this photo near where I took a photo of railway tracks back in 2021. But I took this photo a few weeks ago. So uhhh… yeah.

This is another where it’s about a sense of quiet to me. A sense of being devoid of activity, of human interaction, even though there are multiple signs of human activity having been in the area. But I like the stillness. I like that coming across.

I hope you enjoy.

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Wreckage

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

I saw this car at a rest stop along The Hume. It had been destroyed by someone, or perhaps a group of people. Tyres removed, glass smashed, rubbish left inside, and it was a little sad to see.

I wonder what the motivations behind this were. I wonder why people would set out to do something like this. What led to the decision being made.

I hope you enjoy.

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Tarô Iwashiro: A Day Filled By Sunlight

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

One listen, and a little surprised that I got through this as quickly as I did. Probably could’ve written more over a few plays, but I didn’t and I’m fine with that. I think that, at the very least, I captured the introductory nature of the song well enough.

Tarô Iwashiro’s (岩代 太郎) “A Day Filled By Sunlight” (“햇살 가득한 그날”) is from Memories Of Murder (Music From The Motion Picture Soundtrack), the soundtrack for Memories of Murder (살인의 추억).

I hope you enjoy.

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Piano stirs among strings. Fragile, tense, and foreboding. Serious. There’ stress, there’s pressure and there’s an ordinary day, like any other. The sounds are slow, drifting, carrying a moment to where it needs to move, where it needs to go, and they flow on with a complex simplicity, drawing emotion, welling it all up until they stop and the song ends.

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Distant Hume

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

The bridge in this photo is part of The Hume Highway, and I feel it harms the feel of the surrounding space. I get why it’s the way it is and I have used it; I appreciate its convenience, but I still feel it doesn’t sit as well within the landscape as it could.

This was taken at a lookout point, and it was an interesting one as it gave views that felt both open and enclosed, with varying amounts of land clearing, too. Whilst I wish the views had more vegetation, it was a nice break point to have at that hour of the morning.

I hope you  enjoy

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1605: Time to Write Something

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

Well, it’s time to write something, or something. It’s time to write something and find the words. This should be an easy enough task. I don’t have to worry too hard or about too much, and my day has been good. It has been easy. So all I need to do is let the thoughts flow and see where they lead, if they do indeed lead anywhere at all.

So why is nothing coming to me?

I think I just need to warm up a bit. Get myself ready. Get myself prepared. Just churn out the words, the meaning and the intent, and it will all come into view. It will all become clear. It will become all mine and mine alone, and I will find it and summon it and then… everything will make sense. I will find the words. Something will come to me and it will reveal itself in the most spectacular of ways. It will do that, I will be here. I will be amazed, or something. I will be overwhelmed. I will have finally found what it is that I find within everything, and nothing will be as it always was, sitting to the side and a little to the left, behind and looking forward. Looking forward into an endless dream. And endless field of ideals and solitude, and perhaps fun and joy and ebullient activity, and jubilation abound, over yonder, toward the tomorrow, and always underneath the sea when underneath the sea, and above it when above it, and ever forward, ever forward, and finding where it all lies and should make sense when everything is in ruins around us.

But yeah, I’ve got nothing. I’m tired. I’m stretched out. I’m running thin, but there is something here. There is something returning to me. There is something within my hands, and I can feel it. I can turn it around and rotate it, and it is like a stone, floating there. Floating here. Finding its way to my heart, revealing itself. The words are coming and they are coming at a rate that I cannot discern. Don’t know if that’s due to coming too slow or coming too fast. In any event, they are here. Or over there, but they are coming here, slowly, speedily, with some sort of purpose, and they fill my vision. They fill my space and they harmonise and tell me that it’s all okay. That perhaps, even though I’ve written so much crap, it hasn’t been, and that’s a good thing… maybe. Who knows. I don’t. I know I don’t. I’m okay with that.

So let’s just say that nothing comes to me by the time this bit of writing ends. I don’t know what I’ll do. I don’t know where I’ll go. I know I’ll have to keep trying, but only for so long as sleep will arrive and once that gets here, it’s over the game for the day and I’ll get some rest, but not enough.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:17:45

Rusty in a way, but also not. And a bit silly, too.

Written at home.

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At a Quiet Road

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

Good bit of fog in this photo, I think.

This is a photo I took because I liked how everything appeared in relation to everything else in frame. It all feels “right” to me, and I like how there’s a quiet to it, too.

I hope you enjoy.

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An Update on Ending Stupidity Hole

Posted on May 16, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

So I figured it’d be good to give an update on what has been happening over the past few weeks, which is not much. I got back from Melbourne, planned to continue wrapping things up, and that’s just what I did. However, how that was happening was in the background.

I was doing something that I’d been thinking about doing for quite a while, and eventually that thing turned into something I felt would work for one of the last bits of writing here. Something conclusive in a way. However, me being me, I didn’t start working on this thing until a few months ago, and it was a tedious thing to do. It took a lot of time.

I tried to power through it by working out how many hours this thing would take, but I had to keep putting it to the side for a few days to give myself a break. As said, it was tedious. However, that is now done and all that remains is to do the writing component and another thing, but that other thing will take far less time.

I’d hoped to have everything wrapped up nearly a month ago, but fatigue and other things have been happening. I also didn’t plan as well as I should have, but that was okay, and I gave myself an extra few days.

So I went for a drive to see family, and the day before that was what I was then aiming to make the last day of this blog.  That fell through because of fatigue. Came back home, did the writing about resuming the ending, and got back into the tedious thing, thinking that’d be only a few days. I think I wrapped that up on Wednesday. Working on it left me feeling drained, but I’m glad it’s done. The downside on working on it, however, was that everything else was put on hold. Well, there was photo processing, but that wasn’t specific to here, but that took time too… anyway.

It has been nice having a brief break from writing. I have written some things here and there, but nothing I’d consider substantial as it only amounts to a few sentences. About to get back into it, however.

Right now I have a few things ready and a few things needing completion. I’m hoping to power through it all within the next week. Hopefully less, but might be more. There still is a fair bit to get through, but I’m going to try. I really want this all wrapped up, and sure, I could just do that here and now. I could even leave the whole thing on the previous bit of writing. However, I still want to make sure that this space is as complete as I can make it.

So, yeah. Just wanted to make an update, let you all know what’s going on.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1594: Resuming the Ending

Posted on May 1, 2026 by Stupidity Hole

So I’ve been doing a bit of work in the background which has dragged out ending the blog, which sucks, but it kind of has to be done. Due to some miscounts, it turns out that the amount of these I’ve done is listed incorrectly, but eventually it will be updated. Hopefully before the end of next week, but the correcting might take longer. As of this writing, this one is at 1594, but it should be at 1604 by the time I’ve finished updating. But it’s taking time, and it means I’ve gone over the amount I wanted to wrap up with, but that also means I’ve a little more wiggle room.

I was hoping to have this wrapped up by the anniversary, then a few days later and this one thing that I need to take care of has put me in a position to draw everything out. That and the almighty fatigue rearing its head as it always does. But I’m persevering. Things are sliding into place, things are getting lined up and soon. Very soon. Hopefully. Just means an intense few days of pumping and creating and all that, and then the final dump of things and I’m free, baby. Free at last and all those other things that sound fun and cool and whatnot.

I’m sitting here, a few days after my return from Melbourne. Sitting here, tired, sore, worn out. Trying to get some things done and getting not much of anything done. Thinking about the best course of action to take. thinking about getting to the end of it all, the last of the things, those sorts of things and things those sorts of and so on and so forth and you get the idea. The main thing I want to get across is that it is happening and it’s getting close.

I do feel a bit shit about how long it has taken, but there’s not much I can do about it at this point. I mean, sure, I could just make this the final thing. I could do that. I feel that’d be a bit of of a mean move. But then again…

So anyway, yeah. Or is it? Not it’s not. But the days have been kind, and so was Melbourne. It was needed and it will be written about. Just need to get my thoughts in order, look over my notes (planning an essay about the trip, but it’ll be about more than that, of course). Process photos, get distracted, do other things, then panic as I’m not doing the thing. Find where everything lies at the end of the day. Piece my life back together, fall apart, fall to pieces, become a doughnut.

Before all that, make dinner and go to bed early. I’m wrecked. I’ve been wrecked for too long. I need my rest. I need my time. I need to look after myself better than I have been, and I am working on it the best I can.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:59:48

Not the best speed, not the worst.

Written at home.

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