It is the afternoon and the day seems to drift on as though cloudless, though it does actually appear to be cloudless and so maybe that fits. I’m not sure how a day drifting as though it were cloudless actually translates into something that makes sense, but it works and so I’ll leave it here and not due to my desire to make sure I get as much written as I can in as short a time possible.
There are sounds cascading from my speakers and I feel pretty relaxed. I feel mostly better. I feel as though I’ve lost far too many weeks to being ill, but I feel better and feeling better is an improvement that I can get behind.
The day drifts aimlessly and so do I, it seems. It seems as though all I am doing is floating along and trying to get to the next point. There are a lot of points to get to, of course, and I don’t know as tow here the next one is, but I can keep on going and I can keep on floating on, but I have to think about what else is out there so as to better anchor myself, as floating aimlessly, whilst good at times, is not good all the time; at least, in terms of me, or something.
I think that maybe I just need to think of other things. I need to think of things that I don’t always think about and then see where those things lead, if they do indeed lead anywhere at all. It can be difficult to tell, but within all of this difficulty there is an answer that will lead the way forward. Which answer that is, I don’t know. I don’t even know if I get a say in which answer it is, but I’d like to believe that I might be able to influence it in some way. Failing that I’m sure I’ll follow the answer at some point. Maybe not right now and maybe not later, but at some point… I hope. Maybe.
So it’s an easy day and perhaps it is a lazy day. Perhaps there is little, if anything else that needs to be said now. I can get on with it and just stare out the window and dream through the day. I can do that until I need to do other things, but I don’t think I will as there are other, more important things to do, but I won’t discuss those as they are not important enough to discuss. I’ll sit here and think about them, however.
Maybe I’ll think about other things instead. Maybe I’ll think about where I want to be and what I want to be doing. The world seems asleep in some ways and it will soon hopefully wake up. There’s a lot to see and do and there are only so may years in which those things can be done, so… yeah.
I wasn’t sure as to where I was going with that so it likely has no relevance, but that of course depends on how much we provide definition and relatability to relevance. I’m also not sure as to where I’m going with this and so I think I will stop and move toward the next thing.
There’s so much out there to cover and discuss and I’m just floating along aimlessly at the moment, but I feel I’ve got the time to at this particular point in time. I feel as though I’ve got the time to not worry so much about things. I won’t have this time later, but right now I do and so I’m just going to keep on enjoying this moment and taking it easy. I’ll think of something to write about later, but right now there is little I feel as though I can cover and so I’ll just ramble and waffle on about whatever it is that I’m rambling and waffling on about. It’s a little easier than struggling to come up with things and that’s okay. Right now it’s just an easy day and so I’m trying to take it easy and take it slow. I’m trying to relax and float on and it’s a little easier than usual.
I really don’t know where I’m going with this. When I started writing I thought I’d be able to collate my thoughts and get something that may be interesting across, but that does not appear to be the case. Instead of that I’ve put out more boneless waffle out into the world and in continuing this and then allowing it to be public suggests that I’m fine with this existing in a public space. Maybe I am and maybe I’m not, but really, I’ve been doing this for long enough to not entirely care as to whether this bit of writing is out in the public. It’s not good and it will not become good, but it exists and so it is here.
I also am here and I’m churning all of this out. I need to find something else to do as there is time to do other things and I don’t want to let that time fall by the wayside. So long as I have the time I can take advantage of said time, but I think I’ll just keep on relaxing instead. There is a need but there is not a desire and so being lazy wins out for now. However, next time it might not win out. Next time it might lose and so desire will take charge and lead the way forward. There is no telling right now, but later, perhaps, assuming I even go as far soo as to be able to see that that is indeed the case, if there is even a case at all to see, for there may not be but…
So anyway, the moral of the story is make sure to something something and something else.
The time it took to write one thousand words: 11:15:09
Not great, but… not great.
I feel as though I’m starting again at the moment, but this still could be better.
Written at home.