A lengthy day spent doing little to nothing other than sitting here, coating the seat in sweat and trying my best to not stick to it, though it seems as though that is a difficult thing to do as the seat most definitely seems like it wants to fuse to me, and who am I to argue against this prospect? I’m just one person among a sea of many and it is not my place to tell the seat what it can and cannot stick to, unless it truly is my place, in which I need to exercise this right.

That all said, I’d much rather be doing something else, but I lack the motivation and the energy to get up and get onto taking care of things. This is one of those situations where I need to start forcing myself to do things so that I get things out of the way and can therefore move onto other things to do. However, there are just far too many things for me to do and I don’t have the time I would hope I would have… except I do and I’m being far lazier than I should.

This is how it goes sometimes, and I really need to pull my finger out and get to doing things. If I’m even just a little more proactive, I can probably get a lot more done and therefore clear out the queue that keeps on building up. Now that would be a joyous thing, but I think I might also be a little burnt out. I think the overdoing of the things during last year may have taken its toll and now I’m sort of paying for it. I need rest.

Actually, it’s not rest that I need. It’s a good sleep to get rid of the lack of sleep which would allow me to something or something else. I also need to stop procrastinating so much. Reducing that would help.

Perhaps if I sweat even more, I’ll break down to my constituent elements and be able to get away from this situation by moving somewhere else. I could move to somewhere I thought I wouldn’t be able to go as I would no longer be a solid human. There would be things I could see and things that I could do, but then again I’d rather not as that doesn’t solve the situation at hand. There are other things I’d rather do than turn into some sort of something else.

I’d much rather be writing and working on photography than sitting here doing nothing, but nothing is dominating for the time being. However, I imagine that, so long as I can start actively working, then I can pull out of the nothing and start working on something instead, which would lead to the building of good habits.

However, there is the chance that that would not be the case. It could lead to more bad habits.

Only one way to find out.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:13:47

Not enough sleep. Not enough self-motivation.

Harder to write than expected. Wrist still not 100%.

Need sleep.

Written at home.