I’m sitting here doing nothing so I figure I should be doing something and so I might as well write this as that is more than doing nothing. I have a bit of time before work; I should sink my teeth into trying to be productive. However, most of this morning I’ve been going to the toilet and returning to my desk and so now I am attempting to get something in before I go to the toilet once more as I’d prefer to do something more than I’d prefer to do nothing.

Now I’m trying to work out what to do and I know that writing this is indeed doing something and so that counts, but I want to have something a bit more substantial than “I’m writing”. What am I writing? Where am I going with this? What is there to say that I am yet to say? I do not know, for I am lazy.

Well, I guess that pouts me into a bit of a conundrum, though not really, but entirely really, but we’ll see what comes forward in all this writing and going about expressing things in a clumsy way. We’ll see if it truly is all worth it, even though it is as, even if it is not something that is worth reading, it could still be worth writing. Whether it is worth sharing, however, is another story entirely and not one I’m prepared to explore at this present juncture in time.

I can confirm that it is most certainly an egotistical endeavour, however, and that is something that I want to ignore and often do, but it is something to keep in mind, I think, as it’s often easy to ignore and pretend is not the case.

Of course in saying that it’s not necessarily about bolstering one’s ego, though maybe it is, but it’s the act of choosing to release a piece of work into the public that is the egotistical part, as, in a sense, when someone does this they are saying that the work is worthwhile of the public’s interest. However, it also needs to be said that this is a far more nuanced discussion than I could ever properly get into (unless that changes in the future) and so I’m sure there is quite a lot that, in the brief amount of words on the subject that I’ve used here, could quite easily be challenged and explored further, and maybe I should.

Maybe I should dig further into that so I can better articulate what it is that I’m saying. Maybe that’s a good idea and it’s something that I should try to embrace more often. Learning helps us be better communicators (sometimes) and it also helps us develop and further ideas, so maybe I should.

There are things to consider and now that I’m doing something I’m doing something. However, now all of this must stop as I need to leave the computer and do some other things.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:50:80

Written this morning and then only getting up now. The joys of work.

I think some of this is good and a lot of it is bad. The flow is rough and that brings everything down.

Written at home.