I’m trying to think of a way to encapsulate this year. It was one that ran as two distinct lines, but it was really tough. How do I put that into easy words? I know there is a way, but I can’t think of the words to use.

I guess it would be best to describe it as trying, but that doesn’t give a good enough idea. It was trying and it was hard, and there were times where I came really close to giving up, but there was some movement in what I hope is a good direction. There was some success.

I think part of the reason why I’m having difficulty thinking of the right words is that, even though there were positives, I’m drained. I’m tired and I need to rest, and I don’t know if I can, and I don’t know if I can keep trying. There are things that I need to consider walking away from; one of those things being Stupidity Hole at a point sooner than I’ve planned. I’ve been writing on The Internet for almost nineteen years, and whilst this space does not cover the entirety of that span, it’s not something I want to stop doing until I reach the point I have in mind.

Stopping doing things is probably going to be a thing I’m going to spend more time thinking about next year. I’m also going to somehow spend more time looking for another job. Hopefully I get an interview sooner rather than later, and hopefully it’s successful.

Will hopefully do more hiking and grow more plants and lift some of the heaviness.

I want to look forward to next year. I don’t want to be downbeat about it, but it’s hard. Still, I’ll keep trying. It’s just another day tomorrow, but I’ll still try to look forward.

2024? Bring it on.