So it has been thirteen years, or something, and the last time I did this was for nine years and that was around four years ago I believe. Could be wrong, but that’s what I believe.

Anyway, it has been thirteen years, and where were you? I’ve been here the whole time, minding my own business by shoving it in everyone’s face, and it has been a time. Sure, it has also been A TIME, but it has been a time, and what a time to exist. So much is falling apart and yet this stays on like a light resisting a fart of malicious intent.

There are more things to say and they would be worth saying, but that is not the aim of the game and therefore there shall be no aiming… or gaming for that matter. What is more important is that I extract the contents of all the messy ugliness from this place and then launch off into space so as to be able to see where everything lies and see if it can be done again, but in a much, MUCH worse manner.

There needs to be more sloppiness spread throughout the cosmos. I don’t think there is enough, and perhaps I am the right person for that kind of work, but I don’t want to do it for work; I want to do it because it is the right thing to do. There must be more sloppiness; there must be more waste.

Though, if I may be a bit more serious for the moment, I’m thinking about how it has been thirteen years, and that’s about as far as the thought goes. I don’t think I would’ve paid much attention had WordPress not reminded me, and to be honest it’s not really something worth celebrating. I’ve gone against my better judgement and continued on doing this thing and it weighs heavily upon me, and that’s on me, and for now I keep going as I march the place toward its inevitable end and take either far too long or not long enough to get there.

In a way it is interesting to see how this has remained constant in my life. Sure, other things also have, but this place really has, and for the time being it will remain constant I guess it’s nice, or something. I don’t know at this point.

In the time I started this blog I’ve had people come and go, finished a degree, been told to volunteer and network multiple times despite not being able to afford to do so, been rejected for jobs in my industry multiple times and dealt with abusive work environments. I’ve also done a lot of walking, photography, making of the music and drawing, and met some wonderful people. I’ve also managed to finally land a job that puts me in a better position and looks like will be something that’s genuinely good and in a healthy environment.

I don’t really know what to say. I’ve written a lot of crap and will likely continue to write a lot of crap, and maybe it will become better worded. I don’t know. I guess it’s one of those things where I’ll have to see what happens from here on out. Until then, however, something something and so on and so forth.

So it has been thirteen years and I’m still here, and so are you, and I guess it all keeps going for now.