Doing that racing thing but I’m trying to get ahead of “Blue Monday” and that is something that I can do.

Just realised that tomorrow is Monday.

So anyway, it has been a day of the doing of the things and the gardening and wearing the body out, but it took a while to get there, but I got there! Now I need to run around some more and stay warm and have a shower and freak out followed by freaking in, and then I’ll be good. Or bad. I’m not sure yet. One of the two, or possibly more.

Maybe the secret to writing is when I am under pressure. Maybe I need to only write when I am under the pump as that seems to be the best way I get anything done. Will it draw in millions upon millions of dollars? No. Or maybe… yes?

However, I know that I don’t enjoy writing like this. It is a good deal of pressure to be under, though it isn’t really, and I prefer to be able to move at a pace that I can pretend is my own, but right now that is not happening. Right now I’m writing and right now I’m getting this done before I tear off, and I’m hoping I get this written before “Blue Monday” finishes. I think it will be done soon, and maybe I won’t.

I’m wondering if this version should be more miserable in sound, or something. It’s not and that is a good thing, but I think I want it to be more miserable. I want to feel the sadness smothering me and I don’t want to dance. I don’t want to feel like dancing and bopping. I want to be sad and this just isn’t providing.

Alas.

So I think I can finish this before the song finishes. It is a version that is less than ten minutes, but more than four minutes and I am still writing, and writing is what I am doing and now I’m doing the spiral thing, but there is no point upon which I will end, for the ending of this is only determined by my reaching the word count that I need to reach which I guess means there is an end point. I think I need to be more clear.

So anyway, now that that is out of the way I think it is time to write a stunning conclusion, but I’ve nothing by which I can use to stun you, the reader, thus leading to your being stunned. Anyway, I think it’d be better if you were just neutral about it all rather than in a state of paralytic anger; I don’t want to make anyone angry. Would rather not do that. I think there are better things to do with my time (and yours too), so I don’t have much.

Perhaps the ending is best served dull, and so you should brace yourself for a fairly dull ending.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:49:36

Good speed. Writing is a bit lacking in places, but overall its okay. A bit stuck in a sense.

Written at home.