Right now I have two choices and I’m exercising one of them. Will see what happens. Or won’t. So long as I get this done within a reasonable amount of time, the second choice becomes viable, and viably so.

There are so many choices and there are so many ways to go about following those choices, and we constantly make them and don’t even think about the fact that we make them, and perhaps that is a good thing as, if we thought more about every single choice we made, there’d be more decision paralysis out there and that’s not necessarily a good thing. Some might consider it… a bad thing.

But we make choices all the time and I’ve made one and I’m still making numerous choices right now, and they are forming the words that you currently see, and as this is happening there are so many choices not explored, and it’s generally not something we think about (don’t know why I’m saying that again), but one has to wonder sometimes about the choices not made and where they lead.

Of course there’s the whole regret thing, but I’m thinking about the smaller ones. I’m thinking about the ones that seem to have no impact or matter in the grand scheme of things, and that’s the set of choices I want to think about.

What if I choose to write one word over the one I wrote? Where would that lead? How would that cascade into a series of other things, if it would at all? What about the point at which I actively breathe? Could that have an impact on things in ways that I’d never be able to understand unless I were exploring that branch through a series of things and all that?

I mean, there probably isn’t much of an impact at all and life goes on and nothing changes, but you never know, and sometimes that is what I want to explore… but on a larger scale, of course. You never know with these things.

I guess in a way it’s a way of shedding realities and pathways to follow the one you’re set to so as to go through the most boring of consequences, and that’s okay too. There isn’t much wrong with that; sometimes a more boring life is the best option, but let me tell you, my life is the most boringly exciting thing possible… or maybe it’d be better to put it as boringly awesome.

I do the things that I do and people express some sort of surprise and admiration, but there’s a lot of tedium in the things that I do. You just get used to it and accept it if you keep doing the things that you do, you know? And so I keep on going through with all that is and I keep making decisions I don’t think about, and everything goes the way it goes and I keep following the path that I keep following.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:00:65

A bit more thoughtful than usual, I think.

Written at work.