You know, there’s a massive sense of relief that comes over when I get something out that has taken a long time.

Actually, now I wonder if that is true. I think it’s true sometimes. Not all of the time, but sometimes. It’s not in this instance, however. More a feeling of being done and time to move onto the next thing, and all that stuff. You know.

I’ve twenty minutes before work commences, and I’ve twenty minutes to keep on writing. Might have to get up to let someone into a room, but otherwise it’s a free bit of space. It’s a moment of time that I have in order to get some other things done. I can take that time and use it to write, and if I use it to write I’m still doing things and I’m still furthering myself, though perhaps not in the way that I would like. Or maybe I am.

Sometimes I wonder as to why I keep spiraling inward rather than spiraling outward, but it’s all good at the end of the day. I’m doing something that I like, even if there are times where I don’t like it, and I do enjoy the process as well as the idea of the process. There’s some alignment. That’s a good thing, I think.

Words are things to use and so we should use them where we can. We should look to expand our understanding of using them, and we should try and test inflexibility where we can, assuming we can at all. Sometimes you can’t, and sometimes you shouldn’t.

We should try to live through life, and enjoy what time we have. I don’t think most people set out to get to the end of their time and wonder if it was all worth it, but I do think that the way a lot of things are set up, there’s not much of a choice there for a lot of people. As such, I think that we need to do what we can where we can for ourselves and others.

Need to try and stay healthy, and push toward the enjoyment of things, and fight for less stress and better quality of life for a lot of people, and we should try and enjoy the things we create. We should try to create where we can and if we can, but we should also try to not clutter our lives… unless that’s something you enjoy, of course. So long as you’re not hurting others.

Okay now I’m feeling some relief, and it’s nice but it won’t last long. There’s other things I need to get onto and I need to be ready to tackle what lies ahead, and maybe I will be. Maybe I won’t, but I’ll see. I’m using my time to write, and it’s a bit of a struggle, this one, as I think I’m telling myself I need to write rather than just writing, but it’s not the worst thing.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:56:23

More not great writing. I felt an urge to do it, but I had to force myself a bit. Sometimes it works; sometimes it doesn’t.

Written at work.