Hearing issues. Fun.

This is… the second day of being on break? The second day. Not much done. Rest. Relaxation. Those sorts of things. You know, not enough sleep to function, but also enough to operate, if that makes sense.

A day with very little music, and perhaps it was needed. Now I’m listening to something that’s rather low and non-invasive. Simple stuff and I’m just trying to get to a point where going to sleep will make sense then rather than now, but it’s not far off. That’s all okay.

The day has slipped away, and it’s cloudy outside. Sitting here, just listening to the sounds. The sounds of a lot of people making a racket have ended, and now it’s the sound of a plane. Not something you hear much of in this area, and that’s nice.

The cicadas chirp and I sit, and a car roars in the distance and still I sit. Trying to spend time, and maybe today time was well spent, but I don’t know. I just feel it was a day where I had to accept being unable to do much of anything. Didn’t have the energy to push against it, and the hearing issues also have not helped.

A lot of today has been spent kind of quiet due to said hearing issues. A blockage that suddenly appeared and refused to leave, and a lot of sounds triggering a ringing. It’s incredibly unpleasant.

But, you know, worse things out there. this could be so much worse. I could have permanently lost my hearing, and that’s not something I want to go through. Need to take care. Need to be careful. Need to rest today so tomorrow can be tackled with some sort of efficiency, and I really have to as I’ve got a bunch of replanting to do.

But today has been lost to history and will be forgotten in a few weeks. I’ll have moved on, as is the way. I’ll have recovered by then… hopefully.

You know, it’s not a great start to the break, however, and so now it’s time that I whinge, but I don’t want to. Not too much, anyway.

Cicadas still going and it’s the best sound. It’s either a wall or a blanket, and I’d rather more instead of less of it, as it means that things are still functioning. It means that we still have insects coming out and doing their thing, and it means that things continue. It means that life goes on.

It’s also distant enough to not be setting off my current hearing issue, which is great. However, I do wish it were louder and closer. But only right now. Or, I’d rather it be louder and closer and my not having this hearing issue so I could better appreciate it. But you know.

Summer is firmly here, and it’s already been a rough one, and it’s increasingly worrisome with each passing year, and today one day of it was spent.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:58:16

Struggled hard with this. Need sleep.

I think this could’ve been good. Too much thinking and not enough letting go and typing. I need to do more of the latter.

Written at home.