So I’m going through this period where I’m just writing heavily. Writing a lot of words, writing a lot of things, looking at drafts and finally finishing them, and I have no idea where this has come from. I think it might because I can see the endpoint, though it’s still a few hills over, but also because I’m just in a better mood than usual. Less tired. Not necessarily less feeling like shit, but in a better mood about it, I guess.

So I’m writing a lot and I’m getting things finished, and this is great. This is good. I need to anyway, as I’ve a lot of writing piled up, but I’m chipping away at it all and I’m getting stuff done, and this is great because, so long as I keep doing this and get things done, then I can finish them and move on, and in doing that, then perhaps I will see some sort of success that I feel is something I can stand behind… not that I don’t, but sometimes you want a bit more than you usually allow yourself to have. Or something like that. You get the idea.

But I’m sitting here and I’m wondering if I really will get to the top of the pile this time, or if it will all pass on by and that will be that. I’m wondering if I’m going to get better, or if I’m going to get worse. I have a lot I need to catch up on still, but I am getting there, if slowly. But I need to keep going.

I generally don’t make resolutions, but this year I’m trying to be healthier. Always am, of course, but this year it’s really happening. Always is, of course.

But I do need more sleep, but I always need more sleep. That will never change, but I’ll keep going.

I think a major issue is spending too much time on my phone. It’s easy to lose a lot of time on it, and it’s also easy to disengage… or so I’d hope. Perhaps it’s not. I am trying to keep track of things, of course, but I’m trying to stay away from it at the same time. Music is fine, but endless scrolling and going through stuff isn’t. That eats too much time and I need to take better care of myself when it comes to those things.

And so I’m just writing a lot and it’s great, and I’ll keep on writing and putting things out. I’ll keep on going for now, but I need to work on everything else I have on my pile. Slowly chip away, remain relentless, charge on and get through it all. Think about how I write, keep trying to learn and grow and put it all into practice, and remain focused, even if the focus is to just write aimlessly. If I do then maybe, just maybe this time I’ll get to the top of the pile.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:28:54

I was hoping for something sillier, but that was not to be.

Written at work.