This day seems to drift on wisps of time, or that’s how I feel about it anyway. There’s a nice breeze and a nice bit of light, and I’m just enjoying the time that I have. Enjoying the flow of the day.

I haven’t done anywhere near as much as I would have liked, and that’s okay. There’s still a good bit of day left, and I’m going to be awake for a while anyway. A lot of admin stuff and boring bits of life that make us wonder where we went wrong and if we’ve wasted more time than we’d like to admit. Those kinds of things.

It’s difficult to be productive sometimes. Right now it is, anyway. And that’s okay, I think, because I’m still pushing through and doing my best. Am I going to get as many things up today as I did yesterday? Probably not. I might try, but I probably won’t get there. Still, I tend to hope. I tend to do what I can and I tend to try my best, even when I am not at my best, so at least I can take some comfort in that.

Sometimes it is hard to do your best when the day is so pleasant, however. A nice, slow day, drifting along, going on about its day… yeah…

And it is a nice day, and pleasant and all of those things. I’m enjoying it. I’m enjoying the slowness and the low light, and the way it doesn’t seem to be moving at all. It’s late in the afternoon, but it doesn’t feel it. It doesn’t feel like much of a day at all. Just a point in time with a bit of light shone upon it to highlight it, or something. I don’t know.

But it’s nice and pleasant, and I’m kind of fine with a bit of lower productivity today. Sure, I’m going to kick it up a few notches soon and get the admin stuff out of the way, but right now this is nice. This is easy. I like this. I can enjoy this time that I have, and I can just float along a bit. I can float along with the flow of time and I can relax. Take it easy. Enjoy being lazy, a little, even if it does end up stressing me out. Way it goes, sometimes.

I’m sitting at my desk and I’m at ease, and this is a nice way to be. I’m not at east enough, I think, and that’s an issue. It has been an issue for the past few days and it’ll probably be an issue some time down the track. Right now it’s not and I like this. I like that I’m relaxing, unwinding, all of those things. It’s a good way to be. Never lasts long enough. I’ll start fearing lack of productivity, but right now, in this instance, in this moment, I can take in very little and relax for a bit.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:09:40

A nice, relaxed bit of writing. A bit of what I needed to do right now.

Written at home.