Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1310: A Few More Minutes

Posted on October 9, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

I’ve a few more minutes before my lunch break ends and so I figured I’d try and get something out. I probably should be doing other things but this feels like a good use of my time. It’s not, but it feels like it is and so this is what I’m going to stick with for the time being.

Maybe I’ll stop part of the way through and then do something else. Maybe this won’t last, but few things do and so that’s not something for which I’m going to concern myself too much with. Besides which, it’s a nice day and I feel like doing a bit more writing to add on to the massive amounts of wasted space I’ve already created.

There’s a tree outside this particular window and I don’t know what kind of tree it is. I don’t really care to find out either, and that’s okay. It’s nice and it’s pleasant, and it doesn’t seem to be trying to take over everything. I’m good with that.

It’s a nice and relaxing time inside but it’s a bit cold but that’s okay. There’s a sense of peace. Things seem calm, if even for a short window. It’s just something I can appreciate and appreciate it I will, or I won’t. Probably won’t but for now I’ll say I will.

Sometimes it’s good to take time away from spending time and instead you just need to waste time. Not always, but sometimes. Need to find the right balance and that seems to be something that can vary a bit, depending on the day and all that.

Need to find the will to finish this off too.

Slowly, yet surely I find myself being trained of the energy required to get this done and so now I need to race on forward. I no longer have time to relax; I only have time to rush. I am fighting a losing battle, but surely I can get through this and then feel confident that I’ve done what I could to get to where I needed to be, though I don’t need to be at the end of this and can easily cast it aside, but I choose not to as I’ve already put in some of the work and so I want to try and finish the work and… yeah.

Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe I should just stop here and take it easy. Maybe I shouldn’t be rushing through this as it could end up creating a determined quality that could be classified as poor. Right now I’m aiming for above that. I want to achieve something that is, at the very least, at something akin to needing improvement, which is one whole step above poor. However, now that I’ve started I cannot stop and so, even though my energy is depleting at an accelerated pace I am nearly where I want to be with this and so there is not much reason for me to stop right now.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:13:24

I think I had something initially and then I lost it. Tried to spin this into something else but perhaps the transition was too jarring.

Written at home.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1309: The Desire to Write is There, but Perhaps I Need a Theme Today

Posted on October 9, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

Sitting here, trying to work out what to write. The desire is there but I feel as though I need a theme to spur me on in this brief moment of time before I go and do other things.

I could write about cycling but I’m not going to do that as… well, I don’t want to.

This really isn’t the worst problem to have. I was going to add more to that sentence, but there is nothing else to add really. I mean, what do I have to say beyond that? It’s not the worst problem to have and I am painfully aware of that. I want to say it’s still a problem because it is, but that feels like I’m cheapening the intent of what was initially written and so that is something that I am not going to say as it doesn’t make much sense for me to say it if I want to maintain some sort of integrity.

So anyway, I sit here, I wonder and I waste time. That sounds like it puts things into a perspective or sorts and maybe it does. Maybe I should go for the ride that I was telling myself I’d do. Don’t want to waste too much time now, but I’m now wasting much time. Don’t want to be doing that. Want to be moving and grooving, but not both at once. I want to get stuff done before work starts; not after, and I want to write something but I feel the need for an idea.

I have a thirst for direction and I say this as I ignore the many other things that I could be doing. I could instead just stop now and go for my ride and listen to “Pride (In the Name of Love)” on repeat, but then I’d quite possibly be cheapening that song to myself. I could also choose to not do that and I probably will choose to not do that as it may be better to have a variety of songs playing into my ears so then I get a sense of something that having a few songs rather than one can provide in specific situations.

Also, the direction would be forward, but that’s not the kind of direction I’m looking for in these trying times of trying and times.

I think perhaps my net is too wide and it’s getting some breakage and that can take a while to fix as I need to fine where those breakages are, and perhaps they don’t actually exist and I’m just deluding myself, but it is possible.

I think I just need a bit more sleep.

So I guess I should stop writing for the day. I should try and rest and relax but there’s a bike and I want to ride it before work starts. There are other things too, but that is the first thing and so I’m going to stop writing this and I’m going to go do that.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:08:82

Good speed and some of this makes sense in terms of continuation within the writing.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m getting better or if I’m staying in the same position.

Written at home.

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Floral Hat

Posted on October 8, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

I recently started taking photos of the hats my partner has made so she can more readily promote her production design work. This one was made for something she worked on earlier this year.

As I don’t have studio lighting I improvised to try and get a good balance of light and I mostly succeeded. There are other photos where you can see the mannequin head, but I like this one as it makes the hat appear as though it’s floating in a void.

This is my submission into the two hundred-and-seventieth Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “On Display“.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Week 1 – Tina

Week 2 – Patti

Week 3 – Ann-Christine aka Leya

Week 4 – Amy

Week 5 – John Steiner

Week 6 – Sofia Alves

Week 7 – Anne Sandler

Week 8 – Donna

Week 9 – Guest host

Leya is curating this one. The next is curated by Amy.

I recommend participating in the challenges as they provide a fun way to interpret theme. If not participating, then at least you should still check out what others of the Lens-Artists community are submitting.

I hope you enjoy.

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Bocuma: To Be Made Mandatory

Posted on October 7, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

One listen.

I heard this song earlier today, thought I could write about it but it was a struggle to do so. I think that is mostly due to being tired; I think covering this song would be easier if I wasn’t looking more to sleep than anything else right now. Some of what I wrote is okay but a lot of it is pretty poor, I think.

Bocuma’s “To Be Made Mandatory” is from The Day of Purple Dawning.

I hope you enjoy.

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Thuds and pulses play rhythmically whilst the background hums and gentle notes move on through everything else. A bit more sound comes in and it moves with a bit more vigour. The beat rises to prominence and soon everything, or at least most things move with some sort of confidence.

That more vigorous sound returns and it alters the melody slightly by adding a sense of range before disappearing once more. The sounds keep on driving forward and they push on, but they do so with ease as they craft their landscape.

A sense of rest, or at least “slowing down” for a moment. It’s almost a time to breathe but everything around is relaxed. The beat has changed and soon all return to the main flow and it’s all a cool walk; a cool motion moving through the landscape that has come forward.

Some sound drops whilst everything else pushes on. Then it rises back and brings everything to a halt. Almost. The beat continues on in a muffled form, then something starts rising, but then what is left here stops and the song ends.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1308: Tired and Functioning

Posted on October 7, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

Been awake too long thus far. Been awake too long and still functioning which is good, but too long is too long and soon I will work and I don’t want to work on the lack of sleep that I am currently carrying. Such is the way of things but… yeah.

Will get through the day.

Not sure why I woke up so early, but it meant I went on a drive… or it didn’t. What I mean to say is that I ended up going for a drive. It was a short one but it was nice. It had purpose and it got done what it needed to get done and now I’m here and I’m tired and I’m going to get a second coffee because I’m tired and need to consume greater quantities of coffee in order to stay awake, or something.

In the interim I’m just trying to get through this and then move onto the next thing and then go from there. I don’t have time to go back to sleep as soon work starts so I need to stay awake and keep powering on and hope for the best and all that stuff. The usual things, as they say.

Actually not sure how usual those things are as I don’t speak much to people about that kind of thing but… yeah.

So anyway I think I can get through the day but it will be a wild ride of tedium and roughness. It will be as though sand will consume this space and I must struggle through its coarseness. I need to get through it and get to the end and I will get there at the rate of one second of time per second of time. That may take a while but there are only so many seconds in the day and so I will get there.

Perhaps this bit of being tired is a sign and I need to pay attention as it’s telling me to stop, but I don’t know what it is that I must stop. It could also be telling me to go, but I don’t know where to go and so I wander aimlessly, and but wandering aimless I mean I sit at my desk and try to work out what to write so as to write something and hopefully ignore the fact that I’ve been awake too long and desperately desire sleep but I have no idea as to when sleep will arrive, though there is an idea of it arriving alter today and by that I mean in the evening and by that I mean tonight and by that I mean tonight, in the evening, when the sun has set and the sky is dark and there is a suggestion of the going to sleep, though of course I could resist and stay awake but I don’t want to do that, so… yeah.

So anyway I’ll get through the day but it might just take a while.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:20:72

Wrote this in the morning, sharing it now due to procrastination.

Bit of a mess.

Written at home.

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Mount Nasus

Posted on October 6, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

Some time in the last few weeks I starting thinking about redoing Mount Nasus which I originally did in 2015. From what I remember it was based around my talking with a friend about my nose, which is big, and making some silly remark about a nose mountain.

Two days ago I looked through my media library on here to see if I shared it as I couldn’t find it under its name or catergorised under art (this is how I found out I had uploaded Frustration beforehand and so updated what I wrote on Pressure accordingly). I couldn’t find it and so somewhere around then decided to redo the work.

These feel similar but also different and I think it’s a perspective thing. There are some adjustments to positioning and sizing that I think work in favour of the work, but at the same time it feels less fantastic and more grounded. In that regard I prefer the original, but otherwise I’m not sure if I can favour one over the other.

I did a version with nose hairs but I feel as though two hairless nostrils look worse.

This was started yesterday and finished toady.

I hope you enjoy

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Masanori Hikichi and Miyoko Kobayashi: Tunnel Inside the Sun

Posted on October 5, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

One listen for this one.

I struggled to get to a point where I’d start writing and I think that maybe writing about this song wasn’t the best idea. When I got started I was okay but it took a really long time just to get to that point. I think the writing suffers for it and so whilst this looks more into how the song feels, it could be much better.

Masanori Hikichi (曳地 正則) and Miyoko Kobayashi’s (小林 美代子) “Tunnel Inside the Sun” is from Terranigma. From what I can see the song is yet to be released in any official capacity and may also be known as “The Gaia Stone”.

I hope you enjoy.

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Flickering here and there and something echoes above. Strings seep into this twisted environment, and all continues moving in ways that seem off.

Moments of strings here and there, seemingly trying to connect whilst pressing into the conflict between what was and what now is. Oscillations of sound creep in and in the distance something almost heroic approaches. It looks here and there and it seems to keep on coming but it remains at a distance, and it’s trying to be heroic but it cannot reach. It cannot arrive and it carries an urgency in tension, stress, pressure and despair.

That heroism disappears and soon there’s a return to the flickering alone. As there’s a build in atmosphere all fades out and the song ends.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1307: Success in Worthlessness

Posted on October 5, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

And so it begins yet again but today I’m going at my own pace. Unfortunately that pace is exceptionally fast and so… yeah. A lot of cramming in very little into even less time for no discernible reason.

There is nothing to gain from this and there is nowhere to go through this either. This is meaningless waffling spurred on by the idea of routine, though perhaps that is a thin veneer hiding a massive ego that was never warranted and cannot be substantiated. This writing is meaningless; it is devoid of meaning. It takes meaning away from whatever is around it and it continues to absorb and grow and become a bloated beast that cannot be slain and so all I’m doing is unleashing more evil in a world of torment.

What do I do now? I’m just producing meaninglessness and I’m writing things that are wasting time in more ways than two. I could try to add some sort of meaning to this but then I might lower the ways in which this wastes time, and wouldn’t that be a bad thing? Should I not strive for more? Should I not say “No, I refuse to make worthlessness worth less”, reject that which compels me to do otherwise and push on into the face of adversity and denial in order to reach for success, regardless of how foolishness any attempt may be?

Should I not strive for success in worthlessness? This is what I put to you, and I dare you to bear witness to what comes through all of this, for even if I don’t succeed, I will in some manner.

I dare you to see and deny that the triumph of the spirit and hard work in succeeding in creating things with a dearth of worth will not be on full display, and I dare you to say that I was not one who could not, for you will not be able to once you see and instead you will be knowing that I could, and the words you thought you had will not appear, and you will be bereft of speech as you become aware and knowing and then that will be that.

I will not stop and I cannot stop. I must continue on this path of weaving these words into a form that provides nothing of substance. I must create something that lacks everything and I must continue on toward the intended goal. I need to ensure that I work hard. Failure is an option, but failure through lack of trying is not. The aim must be true and I must continue. It is the fate upon which I choose and so I shall deny that which tries to hold me down and prevent me from moving forward.

I will attempt and I will rise to the occasion and I will aim to make this hold nothing to gain. I will cram more of very little into less time for no discernible reason!

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 08:48:25

I slowed down quite a lot as I started thinking about what I was writing and if I could turn it into something entertaining. I’m not sure I succeeded, but I’m glad that I finished the writing.

Written at home.

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Aesthetic Attachment

Posted on October 4, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

To be fair this bit of design could be for more than aesthetic purposes. It doesn’t appear that way, but it could be.

I took this when I recently walked around Sydney CBD in the evening as I was quite interested in the design’s lines. Not much else to say.

This is my submission into Leanne Cole‘s “Monochrome Madness” for this week. Participating is pretty straightforward and something I recommend. If you do, then include the tag “monochrome-madness” in your post. If not participating, then at the least check out Leanne’s photography as well as what other people submit.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1306: Loose Thought on a Wednesday Morning

Posted on October 4, 2023 by Stupidity Hole

It’s not as early as it was before. Soon the day starts in earnest, or at least the idea of the day starts in earnest, or something. Birds have woken up and are going through their processes and I’m sitting here, typing away in the hopes of revealing some sort of thing that will be revealed at the end of the day in a way that… yeah.

Well, the day has already started and I’ve been awake for a wile. I didn’t go outside yesterday. I waited too long. Soon I will be going outside as I owe it to myself to try and be more active so as to be able to do the things that I want to do. There is a lot of work involved and I need to get it done before the working day commences. If I don’t then I don’t know what I’ll do, other than start working, of course.

I hope for a quiet day but I expect a busy one. I’ll keep throwing myself at the various jobs out there in the hopes that I’ll get something sooner rather than later, and I’ll keep on keeping on. I’ll keep pushing through pain as there’s little choice there and I hope that I’ll make it to the end of the day in one piece, though of course I will as I’m not doing anything particularly dangerous or anything like that.

However, soon I will be outside. I’ll be experiencing the world outside and in experiencing that I’ll be seeing things that I’ve seen before, but perhaps I’ll be seeing them in a different way. Maybe I won’t see them in a different way, but still there will be something out there that I’ll be seeing and that means something. It means that I’ll be experiencing things even if I’m not thinking of them in the context of experiencing. I probably won’t be thinking about them at all, but maybe I will. I am yet to find out.

I wonder if… actually, I don’t. I don’t wonder right now. Instead I just sit here and hope that I have something to help finish this off.

The sky is hard and it looks like it will unleash upon the ground at any given moment. Maybe it will; maybe it won’t. I know it will later, however, and that rain will be needed, but it’s needed away from the city more than it is needed at the city. It’s definitely not needed where I am. Still, when it rains here it can be used as some sort of symbolic representation of reprieve and release and then I can write about that, but of course I can write about that now, but I won’t as all I’m doing right now is writing about writing and there is little to say about that with the words I’ve chosen to use here.

The other issue is that it probably won’t rain this morning, so no dramatic walk for me.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:56:84

The speed is fine.

I think the writing here could’ve been much stronger had I focused on the start of the day rather than tried to jump about onto a few different things.

Written at home.

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