I’m currently listening to Talk Talk’s Spirit of Eden as I write this and I’m working out what to write. It has been a long day thus far but I’m getting on top of it. Maybe I’m not getting as on top of things as I would like, but I’m getting on top of it and that’s something, and now I’m listening to Talk Talk.

In a way this feels like a victory, or at least a time to rest but there always remains so much more to do than I’d ever hope, but I keep on going anyway, and maybe that’s due to some sort of thinking I’ve now an inability to stop. Maybe I do; maybe I don’t but I’m here now and I’m listening to music I want to listen to and so… yeah.

Things keep on going and I keep on going and it’s now dark outside and it’s nice that it’s dark. It seems peaceful but it is not; it’s just another phase in the cycle of light and dark and… yeah.

So now what do I do? I sit here and I write this and that, but actually I do know what I’ll be doing soon. There is editing that needs doing and so editing is what I’ll be doing. There will be other things too, of course, but I do know that editing is coming and so editing will be what is done. However, that is for after this and it is in the future. For now I am in the present and the future is a long distance away. I try to reach it but it constantly avoids me and it does so with low amounts of effort.

Now I don’t know what else to write but I need to keep on going. I need to keep on writing this and get to the end but I’m not sure if I will make it. Maybe I will and maybe I won’t. Not sure for now, but I’m sure I will be sure soon enough.

The thing is now I feel I have an obligation to prolong the arrival of the inevitable but if I do that then I’m just wasting time. It’s always better to dive in and get stuff out of the way so you don’t have to worry about it later, but then again that’s not always a good idea. There certainly are better ones to have and I’m not sure if I will have them right now as I’m pretty sure diving in is better than not diving in in the present moment. However, I’ve got nothing else to say right now and so I’m just trying to get something across that expresses how much I desire to procrastinate, but maybe it’s not working out as I’d hoped, but sometimes that’s the way things go I guess.

I should just accept that and move on and then go with the flow and all those other things that sound good.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:39:35

This was one of those “I need to write” writings, but what I should’ve done is just written instead of spent time thinking about what to write.

Written at home.