Today I’m feeling excited. I’m tempered, but I’m excited for what is coming. I’m excited for what lies ahead of me, but I need to work to make it happen.

There are things brewing and all that other stuff. You get the idea. I get the idea. We all get the idea. Things change and you move on and you move forward, and you let go of what has been weighing you down for a while, and you keep on going and then you go some more. At least, you try to.

But yeah; there’s stuff I’m excited about, and there are things that are happening that working on have helped keep me interested in still doing photography. I’ve found a way forward there, and that’s nice. Still need to make those things happen, and hopefully they happen, but I’m sure they will, so long as I keep working on them.

Sometimes you spend a long time in a rut as you work on things, and the wheels spin forward but you feel you’re going in reverse. Sometimes you feel as though you’re intentionally inserting yourself into a massive accident, and sometimes you realise that you need to drop some stuff and get on with other things. Sometimes it’s better to let go sooner rather than later.

I’m thinking about the way I’ll get these ideas forward, and one of them might be happening much sooner rather than later, if only because I’m already preparing stuff for publication, and if I actually finish that stuff off, then I’ll be able to keep it going. A nice side thing that might take a bit of time, and might not take much time at all. Gotta see what happens as I work on it, really. but it’s one of a few things and… yeah.

I know I’m being a bit vague and evasive, but I don’t want to out-and-out announce things yet. There’s still a good deal of work to be done and I still need to keep bringing this place to its end, and there are a lot of other things going on, but I’m looking forward to it all. To be honest, I’m not sure I’ll say much of anything about what is coming from these things in the works. Sharing that Culture Eater exists is enough for me.

I don’t think I could go for a completely fresh start; there’s always going to be the baggage of my nineteen years of writing carrying through, and especially the baggage that this space comes with, but I might just try. I think I’d rather cut myself loose and wander over the hills and disappear from view… in terms of here and previous spaces in which I’ve written. Then I’d come back, hopefully unrecognisable.

There are things in the works and I’m excited for them to happen, and I’m looking forward to them coming to greater prominence in my life as this place gradually winds down. The change will be something nice.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 09:30:57

Bit slow and a bit of a stretching out far more than necessary. Doesn’t bother me much right now, but perhaps later I’ll feel differently.

Written at work.