Well, I’m kind of halfway through what I set out to do today. That’s a good thing, maybe. I think I can get there. Still have a lot to do, but I can do this.

Okay, so there are reasons as to why I’m setting out to churn out words and posts at the moment. Or rather, there is a main reason as to why, and perhaps ancillary reasons that are also there, but not as much, and all that stuff… you know. But there is a main reason, or rather there is a reason that has come forward today that is pretty much the reason… but I can’t talk about it yet. But that’s the way things go.

Trying to write this with my wrist playing up. Not great. Not fun. I can get through it, however. I can get through worse than this. I am getting through far worse than this. This is something where I should be resting, but I’m being stubborn, in part, because it distracts me from the stuff going on in my life. Not much time left and all that.

I should be resting, but I’m tolerating the pain so I can distract myself some more. I’ll get to the end of the day and probably forget about all of this as my mind goes back to thinking about pain of the heart and all that, and that’s the way it goes sometimes.

Well, it’s the way it goes now, but it also sometimes goes that way.

I want to write something long, and I think I just might after this. I have something that I want to start drafting so I can publish it… assuming I get around to publishing it, of course. Writing this is easy, but writing stuff that I want to publish as essays, as critiques, is difficult. Everything is difficult at the moment. Surprising, I know.

I’m getting there, however. I’m getting through today. If I can get through today, I can see tomorrow and if I can see tomorrow, I can keep going. Just need to try and stay focused. Need to stay on task. Need to get more bits and pieces done today so that tomorrow comes with a little less stress.

I think what I’m doing here is trying to stretch for words, and right now that’s okay. I don’t have many thoughts going on in my head right now, or at least not many that are worth rambling about… maybe. Or rather, they’re just not presenting themselves as much as I’d have hoped. I also hope, however, that by the time it gets to a few days from now, I’ll be ready and prepared to tackle a long period of time, and maybe I’ll see some sort of success come forward from it. I don’t know, but there are exciting things coming, despite all the misery in my life at the moment. I just really hope that I get to see them all come forward.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:47:23

Yeah it’s not great writing. I felt I had to, but this would’ve worked better not trying to write within a time constraint.

Written at home.