Once more Badde Manors is not open. I’m sitting in Duoly Rob, listening to easy music, pretending I’m cool. The sky is sunny and the temperature is cold. This is not ideal, but for someone it is. One person (probably more) might consider this ideal. I consider this ideal for wearing gloves and a poncho.

But it’s peaceful and still, and a pleasant day, and after a night of low sleep a pleasant day is a good way to start the… day…

Yeah.

So it was a rough sleep. Awake for a few hours for no reason, trying to get back to sleep. Probably due to the chocolate mousse I had last night. Don’t know, don’t care at this particular junction in time. Just know that it happened. Tried to get back to sleep[ for a while and of course it didn’t work, but now I’m working on this bit of writing. But last night I was working on sleeping and sleep was what was not there.

Got those intense trying to sleep thoughts, as one tends to when they are awake for no reason in the middle of the night and desiring to return to the land of dreams. I can’t remember most of it, but I do remember being visited by the music video of You Am I’s “Berlin Chair” – specifically the Australian music video – and I wondered what they were doing now, other than being on tour (I think they’re still on tour), and then my mind went elsewhere. That’s what came out of the thick miasma of tangled thoughts and chaotic rumblings.And eventually I fell back asleep and it was not enough, but it was something and that’s better than nothing. But of course I had to get back up at some pint and so the alarm went off and I was back to being conscious of my surroundings, and it was not fun.

I’m tired and I’m having a decent time, and that’s a good thing, I think. Not so much the being tired, but the having a decent time. Things are stabilising and life seems to be getting a little clearer, and I have things to jot down on paper. I have to get things written so I can edit them and make them read well, and I hope they read well once I’m done. I won’t know until they are, but I hope and hope is good to have. I’ve said it before, but action needed, but hope feels good right now. It feels like a nice poncho that’s keeping me all warm and cosy, and I don’t have to worry about too much. I have to worry about everything, but I also have a bit of an easy run over the next few days. Things are making sense and that’s good, and now I’ve a clear path through the next few weeks.

So maybe this cool scenery in Duoly Rob isn’t too bad. Maybe it is ideal, because it’s nice and happy.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:22:81

Bit of a stretch, this one.

Written at Dirty Red.