It’s a nice, cool morning and I’m sitting outside of my work building, waiting a few minutes before I can swipe to get in. I’m sitting here without music playing and I’m listening to the traffic pass by. I’m listening to the space around me and I don’t have music playing for the first time in a long time.

Generally I prefer to write with music playing, but today I don’t feel like it. I don’t know why, but it’s fine. It’s nice, in a way. Change of pace and all that stuff. But I’m sitting here and I’m thinking of getting serious, though I don’t want to. I want to keep things lax and easy. I want to keep things all nice and pleasant, but being serious doesn’t mean getting heavy, really. It just means being serious.

Less than three weeks left on my current contract. It’s getting close and I’m not enjoying this, but I’m doing what I can, Just need to keep going. Need to keep surviving and doing my best to thrive during uncertain circumstances. It could be worse. Could be better, but could be worse.

There you go. I got heavy.

Anyway, that is looming over me, but I can still appreciate some things right now. Always can. Sure, there’s the noise of traffic but I am in this space that is mostly empty at the moment. Mostly, but not entirely. People are starting to appear and I’ve been able to hear people talking for the past fifteen minutes, maybe longer. But where I am sitting I am the only person. I am sitting where there are seats and tables and they sit on fake grass, and sunlight is touching them. Bright enough to see that they’re here, but not so much that shade is pushed away.

They feel still and unused, and right now they are. This area will be busier later. Right now it feels quiet, empty. Almost isolated. It feels almost like an area where one should not sit, and right now I am sitting in it and I am breaking the spell of stillness. I am creating ripples in the implied silence.

This area probably spends almost all of its time shaded to some extent. I don’t think there’s a spot here where the sun is visible. I could be wrong there, but I suspect it is the case. It’s nice right now as this space is currently my own. It’s no one else’s, but eventually it will be for other people, and that’ll also be nice.