Tired, tense and all of those other things. Riding a wave at the moment and hopefully it will be going down soon, and gently.
Been awake too long but that’s okay. I’m still functioning and so long as I’m still functioning I’m doing okay. I want to do better than okay but okay is a good baseline from which one can move from and so I will truly to move from that baseline. Of course there will be many steps to move and some of them will be small, whilst others may be large. Hopefully there will be a varying range of sizes when it comes to the steps so that it is not all uniform and feels more like an erratic walk than perhaps it should.
Erratic can be nice on the odd occasion but right now I think… no, I would prefer it, or maybe I don’t. I don’t know. Fatigue is kicking in early and I’m really starting to feel it. Maybe I should take a nap. Maybe I should rest my eyes and hope that tomorrow comes sooner rather than later. As much as I normally would not want to sleep the day away, today that sounds like a nice idea and so I might just endeavour to get into that today. I might just go have a nap and then wake up tomorrow morning and then go from there. feel rested to an acceptable level and all of that other stuff.
However, I am now realising that if I end up sleeping the whole day, I might just miss out on something exciting and grand, and also exciting. I might miss out on small progress and therefore miss out on a bunch of other things. There could be a lot that happens today and I would not be here to witness it due to being in bed and in a deep nap. This is not somethin that I considered earlier and perhaps it is now too late for me to consider. Perhaps I should have thought more about this earlier rather than now.
It is not too late to turn around, but perhaps it is. Perhaps I have already put myself into a position of missing out on the whole day and there is little that I can do about it now other than hope that somehow my resistance of the going to bed to nap and then sleep for the rest of the day holds out and I somehow avoid all of that and end up staying awake and witnessing things that I would not have witnessed otherwise. Then again, I could get some sleep. Sleep would be nice. It would be nice to sleep. It might even be fantastic to sleep.
Now I am caught at a T-intersection and no not which way to turn, so perhaps i0t is now time for me to split into two and make the most of both situations, then somehow find a way to reform myself tomorrow.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:32:20
I was quite tired when I wrote this.
Unfortunately there was no nap and now I’m feeling more tired than earlier.
Written at home.