So once more I’ve postponed things to the evening and once more it was a bad idea.

I had this thing that I wanted to write about. I wanted to write about all the stress of the past few months and I wanted to write about how, when some people keep doing shitty things after realising they allowed for shitty things to happen. I wanted to write about that as it would be a bit of a purge and maybe it would serve as a warning, though really it was probably just in service of my ego more than anything else.

Choosing not to write about those things as there’s enough crap going on at the moment. I don’t need to put more drama into the world right now. Maybe I’ll write about it some other time, but right now I won’t as I feel there are better things to write about. I could write about the night or how soon this house will have more people in it. I could write about that but maybe there are even better things to write about.

I think that at the very least I am going to rest soon. I am tired an all those other things and so on and so forth and you get the idea so I don’t know why I’m going on about it.

At the moment I feel stressed and tense, but I know that with time that will pass. I know that in time I will feel a bit more relaxed, though perhaps no less driven. I am looking forward to that, but right now that is not something I am going to worry about. I live in the present and the future is always far off in the distance, even when it is right in front of me. Right now I’m going to enter a stage of winding down and then when I wind down I will hopefully fall asleep.

There is always hope and there is always determination and with these sometimes you can see your way through bad situations. Sometimes you need to have a plan too, but still, sometimes the insurmountable can be overcome, and I’m willing to argue that rather than sometimes, it is often.

So much drama and aggression is not necessary, and some people really don’t have any regard for how they treat people or how their actions may have an impact. Some people do and don’t try to change. Some people are all talk and refuse to back that up. Some don’t take responsibility for their actions. More often than not these people aren’t worth keeping around. I think that you owe it to yourself to not tolerate this kind of stuff. You owe it to yourself to not tolerate it from others as well as yourself. Respect should be universal, and that means you need to be aware of your own beahviour.

There should be little tolerance for shitty behaviour. Kindness and respect are much, much better.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 09:55:60

I feel that I didn’t use enough words for this, but I think I got the point across.

Written at home.