In one of those states where I’m struggling to get things done and I’m really suspecting that NaNoWriMo was a bad idea this year. Such is life; you live, you learn. You also should, instead of continuing on, stop, but apparently I didn’t get that bit of the memo and now I’m continuing on with something that I should stop doing, if only for the fact that I need to rest as I’m growing increasingly tired with the passing days and need to start spending more time resting.

Anyway, I won’t do that for I want to see this to the end. I want to make sure that I get this NaNoWriMo done and then not participate in one again. It’s not that I don’t enjoy doing them, though part of me certainly does not, but rather that I can’t keep stretching myself as thin as I do as it’s causing far too many issues and all that other stuff that isn’t that interesting to ramble on about, though maybe it is important to ramble on about, though probably by someone who is far better at writing than I am for you’d want someone who can better articulate what they’re saying to write about the things that I’m writing about here, and thus what they write comes off as much more effective and less… I don’t know.

There’s a nice day out there and I’m in here, trying to say things about things and I can’t get them said the way that I want to say them, and perhaps that’s a bit of a shame but perhaps that’s also the way things are to be at the moment. Maybe instead of sitting here and waiting until it’s far later in the day than desired I just sat down and got on with things, I’d have a much easier time, but speculating is not what I am planning on doing right now. That said, it’s not so much speculation so much as it is an admission of not doing enough soon enough, and maybe that will change. Maybe over the next few days things will pick up and I’ll be back on track, but I don’t know. What I do know is that I need rest, but right now I don’t want to and probably won’t as there still is quite a bit that I need to do over the next few hours and so I’m gonna keep on punching away and hope that I get it all done within a reasonable amount of time.

I think that in saying all of this I should just get on with the getting on and keep on digging away at what I need to dig away at so as to be able to get more things done. That all said, something something and so on and so forth and that’s the lesson of the day. This is something that I won’t learn but will, and therefore something else, but you get the idea.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:44:11

Some thoughts that probably are worth exploring further mixed in with a bunch of waffling. Business as usual, really.

Written at home.