Oh god it’s morning and here I go with the rambling, though in truth what I’m doing right now is preparing to mash out a review that I can get up today as it’s a few weeks overdue and all that, so… yeah.

Good to be awake and proactive but there are a number of things that I should be taking care of this morning, and perhaps this is one of them. Getting ahead of the curve and eating into the time that I have by writing this, and that probably is a bad thing but it’s a good way to warm up. It’s a good way to organise thoughts, or at least think about thoughts.

Or maybe it is a bad way to go about things. Maybe I need to embrace the lull and sink into the procrastination so I can find other things that I should dig into and go from there. However, if I go from there I’ll be here and… yeah.

So there I was, standing around, even though I was clearly sitting as I am clearly sitting now, but I was standing around there, which is where I was, and I was putting off the writing that I needed to try and touch upon, when all of a sudden I felt the pull of desire leading me away and leading me astray. There was little that could be done about it and so I had to follow desire to wherever it would lead me.

Turns out where it would lead me is nowhere at all as it was something that I was making up on the spot so as to be able to leave wherever I was as I wanted to go back home as there was some sort of comfort there and that was something I wanted, so I guess it wasn’t actually something that I made up, and now here we are.

Where do we go from here? Where do I go from here? I am at home and so I don’t need to go anywhere, but the desire remains and the desire stays strong. Then again, maybe it doesn’t and now I am going to confine myself to the walls upon which this room is contained within and that will be that, and so now… yeah.

So I think I should get started on that review sooner rather than later. I’m hoping to have it done before the day is over but you never know with these things, or you do and they can be a lot of work and so I need to sink in a lot of work in order to get to the end of it all and then I’ll win at whatever it is that I must win at, and so life will be fine and I’ll be fine and finally I’ll not be financially struggling and can finally stop worrying about keeping a roof over my head for the first time in a long while. I hope.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:39:20

I wrote this much earlier today, and then everything got really busy and only now I’ve been able to upload it which I feel is a shame but it’s now here and it’s okay. I feel it could be better, but it’s okay.

Written at home.