Doing that wait thing where I wait for something to be released. Oh, terrible fate and so on and so forth, though in this instance it is that the album that I’m waiting to be released has been announced as having been released, and it hasn’t.

Bit of a strange one, this. To be clear, it has actually been released… on streaming platforms, and not anywhere else that I can see, and this is a bit of an annoyance as I’ve bought the album, but I don’t have it.

To be more fair, I also have enough things to listen to as it is, and so I can wait, but I don’t want to. I don’t want to have to wait for a thing that I unfairly believe is my right to have access to now. That’s the way it all goes, of course, and in this case it’s also the way that it goes, and so I’ll just have to, but it was announced way too early, and whilst I’ve had plenty of things to occupy myself with (and at times have forgotten about the album), I have to keep on waiting and I can never accept that as a fair thing, or something.

Spend a lot of time waiting and I spend a lot of time finding things to do in the time that is spent waiting, and then I also spend time waiting for others and then spend more time doing other things when plans don’t come through.

I imagine that if I keep on waiting on people and things, I’ll start conversing with the stones.

But I keep on waiting and I keep trying to fill the time, and I keep waiting for this album to come out, but by the time it does I’ll have moved on. I do have to do work., after all, and I need to get on with the day and see it through and all that stuff.

I need to see if there is a way to speed up waiting, and influence the release and I need to find a way to get through everything in one piece. Of course I will, but I’m trying to be dramatic here and it’s not quite working as I know that what I’m complaining about isn’t an issue. There are far worse things out there. However, I do want to have my complaining out in the open and then get on with the getting on and all that stuff.

I do want people to stop wasting my fucking time, however. That I definitely want to stop. I don’t want to have to tell people to step up and start actually pulling their weight, as I’m tired of being the constant idea driver for a few things, but I don’t think that will change and I don’t think that will stop, and there’s little I can do, and so I just have to keep going and let things slide away, for my own sake.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:05:20

I went hard into the deeply serious toward the end, and that is in part due to being pretty frustrated and ready to pack in a few things outside of this space. Was it worth venting about here though? Probably not.

Written at work.