Early Wake for a Bushwalk

Waking up at around three in the morning for the purpose of actually doing something is something I generally don’t enjoy. Still, I do it as it will normally lead to some sort of enjoyment a little later.

Way way back, when I’d fly to Melbourne I’d normally be awake somewhere between three and four in the morning. I’d shave, have a shower, do my last luggage check and then head off to the airport in the dark of the night. Be there at around five or half past five, ready for a flight at around half past six. The airport would mostly be empty. It never was entirely, but it mostly was. I’d be there, wander on over to my terminal and wait, as one does.

The preference for early leaving is one I favour as I’m not much of a crowd person, or much of a people person for that matter. It’s always quieter in the early hours. It’s always easier to navigate around places. It’s also good for catching the sunrise.

Yesterday I woke up at three in the morning. Ewe and I were going to do a bushwalk in a spot we hadn’t and I wanted to be there for the sunrise. He was down. I was down. We did it. The weather wasn’t looking amenable for the sunrise, but we still went early anyway. Far less people to deal with on the road is always a load of stress off.

I got up, had a shower, loaded the car and drove off. I left ten minutes later than I was hoping to at the absolute latest, but it was okay. I still arrived around the time I was meant to.

The drive to where we were going to start was uneventful, which was great. Some people driving with their high beams on, but cars were few and far between. Some heavy fog at points, but I got to the walk with no concerns and that was great.

A few minutes after my arrival and Ewe arrived. We got ready and headed on out. It was still overcast, but the sun made an appearance for a short time, or rather first light and the subsequent sunrise did. It was a wonderful display of a small amount of colour breaking through some of the cloud and fog, and it was precious. It was wonderful.

We walked up an incline and left the path only to find it again soon after. We walked and saw a change in vegetation in that invasive flora was starting to consume what was endemic to the area. Bush fires likely had allowed for the invasive flora to start growing.

A lot of what was around us felt scrubby, and a lot of it scratched as we brushed past it, and that’s the way it goes sometimes. But we dealt with it. We kept on going, and the air should’ve felt cool, and maybe it didn’t, but at least I was feeling quite warm and so I wasn’t noticing it as it also felt humid.

We walked and walked until we reached a junction, and we wondered how much farther until we reached the top of where we were. Checked out map and realised we walked past the placed marker for where we were. The path we were on kept going, and descended a bit. We were feeling it a bit from the walk up, so we decided to turn around. Walked a few minutes, checked the map again, realised we walked past the marker again. Didn’t recognise it at the time; it was a pile of rubble that we dismissed. Didn’t double back.

On the way down we sat on a rock and watched clouds move through the area. A valley, gone. Engulfed by the clouds. We sat there for a little while, just relaxing. Enjoying the lack of view and the sense of isolation. No one else around. It felt peaceful, and perhaps it was. It had been a while since Ewe and I had sat somewhere, staring out into nothingness. Perhaps the last time was at Balls Head Reserve, looking out to Balmain, talking shit and relaxing. Being in various stages of some sort of turmoil. Here we were just relaxing and enjoying the time and space.

Eventually we continued on. On the walk back to our cars I looked back a few times to see the path obscured by fog and not by much of a distance away either. We walked through and on top of a massive area, but it didn’t feel like it for parts of the walk. It felt small and contained. Didn’t feel like what it was at all.

We headed back to where we parked and drove on out to go eat, and we did and worked out another walk to do, though with the second one we only did a little of it. It was partly due to not feeling much of a desire to walk upward at that point, and partly due to the second area seeing a lot of people there by the time we arrived, which was still in the morning.

We checked out another walk as we were leaving, but in its offering a descent, we knew we’d have to go back up and instead decided to go to a café to get something to drink. Which we did.

We sat there, talked in a rambling way, then headed off. Ewe went to meet another friend and I went home, in what was an easy drive. A lot of other cars by that point, but less than the amount coming in.

When I reached the motorway I put my windows down, did something I wouldn’t normally do in blasting my music, and rested my arm on the windowsill, and drove on. I was wrecked. I was tired. But it felt like a right moment. The music I was playing at that point was climactic, and even though this was regular, it felt climactic.

Got home without issue. It was a busy morning and a lazy afternoon, and perhaps there isn’t enough of that in my life these days, but I take advantage of it where I can.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1449: All Those Other Things

So, here we are, at the start of another week of work and I’m tired and all of those things. I’m all and every one of those things. Constantly and never, but right now definitely.

Did a bit of hiking yesterday. Did a bit of very little the day prior. Here now. Sitting down, resting, preparing for the day ahead. Screaming internally and looking forward, and listening to Toad the Wet Sprocket and they aren’t bad. This is a nice bit of music to be hearing right now. Makes me think of one of the things I’m working on, and that’s a good thing, or perhaps not as I should be thinking about other things.

Or should I? What should I be thinking about at the present moment? Thoughts are often so spread out and they lead the way, so does it matter all that much? I can only follow where they lead, or be dragged along through all the lack of focus and all those other things. I can only go through the motions of having to experience my thoughts and right now there probably isn’t something in particular that I should be thinking about. I’m just doing my thing, sitting here, getting along and all that. I’m resting as I’m sore, or rather I’m tired.

I feel like I should be sore but I’m not. To be fair, the hiking wasn’t the most strenuous, but it was tough, and maybe Ill write about it later, but there are other things to take care of, as always. All those other things that are always there, hanging about, crowding my mind and making me wonder if what I’m thinking is what I should be thinking, or  if there are other things to think, or nothing at all… you get the idea.

I’m here, perched on this chair, sitting like a person perched on this chair. I’m sitting here, resting, reclining, wondering how the day will go now. I’m thinking about the intensity of the morning as it will be an intense first hour. A lot of running around, getting things sorted, making sure things work, preparing for the rest of the day. I just want to rest. I don’t want to be tired and I want to think more about this music and its shape and form, and how it seems to be everything and nothing expressed in a few minutes. It passes with the day and the day passes as though a breeze moving beyond where it can be felt by one person, disappearing and never entering memory, but having made its impact by that being as natural as its motion.

But music does hold in memory. Not always, of course, but it usually does, among all those other things that sit there, moving through the main focus and holding attention where necessary, and I sit here, just waiting and being beholden to whatever it is that I must. Anyway, soon work commences and my thoughts will change again.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:36:75

So parts of this I think are quite strong. However, I feel that, overall, this is a disjointed bit of writing.

Written at work.

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Dog Bounding Along

This was taken early last year.

From what I remember, the dog was happy and this photo is unfortunate in how its face is captured, but it was a happy and lovely dog.

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-thirty-fourth Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Cats and Dogs“.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

This one is curated by Tina. The next one is curated by Patti.

I recommend joining the community and participating in the challenges. They’re pretty straightforward, allow room for interpretation, and provide a good way to think about photography in general. If not, however, then at the very least you should check out what others submit to the challenges.

I hope you enjoy.

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Envy: Eunoia

I started this review back in October and finished it today.

At the start of last year I published a review of Eyeliner’s brb (found here) and I described the writing as transitional. I do want my writing to be more rambling in a sense, but more concise rambling. My reviewing has often been too rigid and not said enough, or much of anything. I’m trying to be more loose and move toward more narrative and writing or the experiential, because I feel I’m better at writing something more akin to a narrative than I am of a standard review. I’ve been pushing toward trying to analyse a work and talk about it rather than attempt to be a taste maker for a long time anyway, and that review was a big step in what I feel is the right direction, overall.

With Eunoia I took a further step into being more experiential in my writing, brought some of my friend’s experience into the review too. But it took a while to edit as it was a lot of small adjustments here and there, trying to clean the writing up without making it too rigid. I mostly got there.

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When Eunoia was announced I felt apprehensive. I think I had a brief listen of “Beyond the Raindrops” and “Whiteout” when they came out in advance, but neither left me excited for hearing the whole thing. Envy songs are generally better in context and over time though, and my initial feeling wasn’t out of the ordinary for an upcoming release. As such, there was a good chance that after a few listens I’d feel better about it.

Anyway, Eunoia released on October 11th. I gave it a listen, and sure enough the material sounds like Envy’s work. “Piecemeal” didn’t win me over, but it sounded pleasant. A good way to open the album through its gentleness which continues through a gradual build and dissipation. Easy. Touching. Perhaps a little too close to “Tamayura”, but it also kind of feels like a continuation from where Seimei left off without being beholden to it, so it’s nice the way it is.

Next comes “Imagination and Creation” and its opening moments are highly dramatic, and something feels off. Then everything kicks into high gear and the idea of breathing space goes right out the window. Eunoia is fairly relentless, and generally Envy’s albums have mastering that veers close to overbearing. Here it’s overbearing. Audible distortion; passages becoming indistinct and muddy, sometimes to the point where percussion becomes difficult to make out.

Eunoia runs through a few moods but they’re as range-limited as the songs they’re within. You turn the volume up and the songs don’t have anywhere to go as they were already giving everything when played at a lower volume. Shortly after release I tried listening to it through three different setups and each one had the same result: loud, and distortion and indistinctness, but not in the “vague and dreamy” way. After the first and second listen I felt I’d gotten all the album had. I hadn’t, but it lacks the required range to fully express. It’s dynamic in the way many of Envy’s works are, but it never feels dynamic.

And that’s part of the reason why this write-up on the album has taken the time that it has, because the songs don’t deserve to have that focus taken away. However, when your new album sounds louder than Melt-Banana’s (3 + 5 at the time of this writing), it’s unpleasant trying to dig through to find something of substance to say beyond the go-tos for Envy: emotive music, blasts of energy, new approaches / styles / differing sounds / furthering their sound. Screams, spoken word and singing layer onto the moving nature of the songs as their instrumentation rages and swirls around. You know, something like that. And that’s also unfair as much like Envy’s prior albums, Eunoia offers more than the regular platitudes.

It’s easy to get tunnel vision with Envy, but among all the surface they often offer enough to dig into. I mean, listen to “Invisible Understanding” from Compiled Fragments, or their side of their split with Jesu, or just even “Shining Finger” from Athiest’s Cornea, with the way the synth smoothly does this sweeping, dramatic thing and rises up in what feels like a celebratory climax. Those songs have strong surface components, but they provide a depth and become stronger over repeat listens. You also get that with Eunoia, though in different forms of course.

You also get that with Eunoia, and it’s interesting in that it gets a lot of different things going in its short runtime. At times it feels like it’s rushing, and it feels like the first half rather than a complete package. It is a complete package though, and it touches on many emotive moments throughout its dense run. Those moments run through jagged playing, ideas of the sparse against full, holding back and letting loose, and the band work it from their energy with a great focus and precision. There are times when it becomes too much, however, as even in the gentler moments, it just doesn’t feel like it breathes. At all.

Recently my friend Darsh came around for a lazy day of hanging and talking. We did some card throwing, played Scrabble, had tea and listened to music. Something we listened to was Eunoia on vinyl. It might just be the worst-sounding record I own, and not by a small amount either. The mastering issues remained and were amplified which led to a dissatisfying experience. It was obvious enough that Darsh, someone who has far less interest in the mastering quality of music than I do, thought it was an issue.

There’s probably a good argument regarding records as a superfluous format. Digital has come a long way, and likely supersedes any audio quality benefits a record may offer. However, there’s something about spending the time with putting on one that makes you more an active participant in listening. I don’t think enough artists treat records as worthy of respect, however, and are too willing to accept lacklustre pressings. This seems more common when a record functions more as something to collect than something to listen to. I suspect that this was the intent behind the “warm grey” version.

So I struggled with Eunoia. So what? Underneath the master is an album that experiments with intensity, warmth, emotion, vocal processing and textural play, among other things. There’s some wonderful stuff going on and eventually it sort of sunk in, but the damage was done. Instead of appreciating the work, I was wondering what could have been.

I know I’m harping on here, but when I hear distortion on sounds growing quieter at a song’s end, I’m not struck by the beauty of the moment, but rather its unpleasantness. I think about the rhythmic, gentle start for “Beyond the Raindrops” and I dread what comes next as it almost entirely becomes a wall of loud. Eunoia‘s songs are great, but they’re not allowed to be great. Plenty of its moments are evocative, but listening to it is tiring. I want to properly hear the music, but there’s this big barrier in the way that pushes back.

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Sunrise Cloud Line

From the first sunrise of this year.

Just a nice, relaxing scene. Nothing too big about it. Very minimal, very small.

I hope you enjoy.

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Approaching the Ground

Not sure if this is one of the more interesting ibis photos I’ve taken or not, but I do like it. Has perhaps too much of a contrast between light and shade, which helps make the ibis look odd, or rather not quite conventional.

I hope you enjoy.

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Three Fairy Martins

Another photo I thought I’d shared but hadn’t.

One of the martins was trying to land and, from what I remember, it disrupted the one it’s above in this photo.

This is my submission into Leanne Cole‘s “Monochrome Madness” for this week.

This challenge is open to all, and I recommend joining in. If want to, check out more information about it here, and include the tag “monochrome-madness” when you share your photo. If you’d prefer not to join in, then at the least check out Leanne’s photography, and what other people submit.

I hope you enjoy.

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Beware Sign

Going with monochrome for this one as it’s too harsh in colour. Fine when there, looking at it, but not so much in photography, or rather, how I took it.

But yeah; a sign of important warning removed from its context.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1448: Misspent Hours

A weird day of wasted time of misspent hours. A not-insubstantial amount spent trying to work out why some music was losing all of its information whenever trying to fix it up, and now I’m here, sitting, and looking at some clouds drifting on over and I realise that those look like clouds of rain and it’s not meant to rain today, and that’s not good as the washing still needs a little bit of time to dry. Just a little bit longer, of course.

Serves me right for hanging things up late, really.

So it’s a wasted day, though there was some walking. There was some exercise. I consider that a productive use of time, but I need to do more with what I have and right now I’m doing less. Could be worse, but could be better.

I need to stop doing this getting into gear in the evening, but maybe the time to drop everything is sooner rather than later. Maybe I haven’t thought enough about things and it’s time to move on now, because all I’m doing is perpetuating a burnout that has been my fine friend for years at this point.

What am I writing? Why am I writing this in particular? It does not offer anything and I’m not offering much in the way of form and function for words to travel across space and time. I am saying words that are wasted in this collection and order, and I’m sitting here and readily spewing them more. They go into a void.

A low rumble of thunder and now I’m getting really concerned. I don’t want to stop writing but I need to address the washing outside. I need to keep an eye on the weather and I need to keep an eye on the clothes. I need to keep an eye on a number of things, it seems, and those things are just increasing in amount… or they’re not, but I need to pretend they are so as to get across some sort of dramatic tension that I cannot exactly resolve… though I can, but I don’t want to.

In a way I wish I could restart this weekend. Get over to other things, get everything I needed to get done done and spend time thinking about what could have been had we treated Indigenous Australians better, though I think about that here and there anyway, though perhaps not enough. And I don’t want to move away from that, but one’s personal problems seem overwhelming when they’re so small, and that there is an issue because they shouldn’t. One should not be consumed by them, and one should allow themselves the opportunity to think and wonder, and try to bridge gaps and help people where they need it and if they want it. I think we don’t think enough about others.

But now I need to worry about the rain, and that worry really is so insignificant in the grand scheme of things.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:58:81

One of those days and one of those bits of writing where not much is said and not much happens. Touch on something important, but don’t explore it enough.

Written at home.

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The Sun Sets on 2024

More sand dunes and now featuring the sunset.
Something about this space feels vast and empty, or quiet. Disappearing. I’m not sure.

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-thirty-third Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Complimentary Colors“.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

This one is curated by Egídio. The next one is curated by Tina.

I recommend joining the community and participating in the challenges. They’re pretty straightforward, allow room for interpretation, and provide a good way to think about photography in general. If not, however, then at the very least you should check out what others submit to the challenges.

I hope you enjoy.

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