I figured that if I’m going to go on about my life at great length and discuss my progress in self-improvement as well as my trying to earn another chance with my ex, her family and my friend, then I might as well say why I still want to be with my ex.

Aside from the wounds still being fresh, my loving her still and probably youthful naiveté, I have a few reasons.

She is the only person I know that is able to give me breathing space from all the crap and stress I bog myself with just by being around me.

She showed me that the world is a beautiful place.

She supported my decisions, regardless of their stupidity.

She gave the best hugs.

She made me laugh better than anyone else.

She loved me for who I was; not what I was.

I know I am able to make her laugh.

I also know I can make her happy and feel good about who she is.

It felt natural to be with her as we did work well together (until my negativity).

I also love her for who she is.

I want to be able to show her that I can be relied on and be fully supportive all the time.

My brain is listening to my heart for the first time in a long time and both agree that trying here is the right thing to do.

I saw (and still see) a future with her as a feasible life choice.

I know that I can be worth it.

Off the top of my head, those are my reasons.

With that being said, I’m still going to become a better me for me and not others, but what I’m hoping to achieve is still part of my focus.

And that’s the end of that embarrassing post.