Trying to buy and trade in time but it’s a dead commodity. Maybe.
Anyway, that’s not the point of the writing of today. Today the point of today’s writing is to find a point and stick with it, but there will be no searching for in order to search I must get up and getting up is what I want to not, so therefore there will be no getting of the up, or “down” for that matter. Temporary sedentary placement is the ruler and that is fine, for now I can find myself in space and time, but maybe not. I mean, I can within a limited range, but outside of that limited range I am lost and have no idea.
At least I know that right now where I am relative to the keyboard and the mouse and my hair, but then there are other things that I need to consider in my immediate surroundings to know where I am in relation to them and the further out I go, the less knowing where I am in relation to other things and thus too far out and I’m going to have a bit of an issue on my hands. That is an issue I’d rather avoid.
If I don’t avoid said issue then I could very well become quite lost and if I do indeed become quite lost it might prove a challenge to find myself once more. There is only so long the rope runs. Too far out and I might lose grip. Not quick or noticing enough and I might not be able to grab back on and are then thus forced to float around in the vastness of whatever it is that I am in, unable to return except for the act of pure chance. Therefore today I stay where I am and just think about where I am whilst not looking for anything. No looking for words to try and express anything. No looking for anything to try and express words. Probably not going to try and buy and trade in time either. Bit of a fool’s errand at this point. The only thing I can be sure of is the moving of the hair out from the front of my face so that I can see a bit better, but that might happen later as I’m trying to get into the zone right now.
Whatever the zone is, it does involve a lot of sitting and spacial certainty, or something. Where am I even going with this?
I think that at some point there I kind of came off the rails and my train of thought became far too aware of itself. I guess I could try and re-rail, but I think that, seeing as I’ve come this far I won’t and instead will just focus on the sitting. Maybe that isn’t productive, but on the plus side I don’t have to worry too much about finding a way to end this thing sensibly.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:39:85
I really don’t know what happened with this one. I think I switched my train of thought a few too many times.
Written at home.