Cold and cold and it is all cold. Today is a cold day. Maybe it is just cold in here. Maybe the cold is just relegated to my shoulders and what I really should do is step outside of the bedroom as it might not be so cold out there.
Is this something that I dare do? Do I dare go outside of my bedroom, even if only for a short period of time?
I believe the answer should be “yes”. However, instead of saying “yes”, what I will say is “YES”.
Maybe without so much excitement, but that’s something that can be covered a little later on in the day, assuming that I dare cover it at all.
So anyway, the decision has been made. There will be the leaving of the room. There will be the leaving of the room in search of something akin to warmth. I don’t want to generate my own so much as just find some that I can then claim as my own. I can bathe my shoulders in the world outside and let them soak up some heat and then go from there. Maybe going from there will lead back to here, but then again maybe it will lead to somewhere else that is known as “there”, but only in terms of where I was before and not where I will be later, or something.
Anyway, I guess it is time for me to leave the room. I have not prepared for this momentous event but it is one that needs undertaking and undertaking is what I shall now do for I want to leave the room and go outside and see what there is and get my warmth going. I need my shoulders warmer so they don’t lock up. I need to now warm my legs a bit as they’re starting to feel a little bit of the cold.
Maybe I will need to generate my own warmth after all.
This is not something that I want to face up to, but perhaps it really is the way forward. If it is indeed the case, then I guess what I will do is a little bit of walking spread over a lengthy period. Maybe instead of a little bit, I will do a lot. I will make sure to walk a lot and I will walk at an accelerated pace. This could lead to something new. Maybe it won’t lead to anything at all, but the hope is that it will lead to something new.
Wait a minute; the hope was to warm my shoulders. Then it was to also warm my legs. The act of warming was to be done with as little effort as possible. Now I am talking about going on a walk of considerable length and I don’t want to do that right now. It is not the best idea considering the current situation in Sydney. There are other things that need to be done and there are other things that can be done without worrying about going outside.
Perhaps there should be some sort of exercise inside that will help with the staying warm, but instead of that maybe what I really should do is get a bunch of blankets and wrap myself in said blankets and then, once I am in all the blankets, sit back down here and do very little in the way of movement until I am in a position where I am much warmer. Then I can get on with the doing of things and from there I can also get on with staying warm.
Now that I think about it, between now and the getting warm. what is it that I do in the interim? I still have to live through being slightly cold for a short period of time and that is not something that I quite want to experience. There are other things that I want to experience; that is not something on the list that I consider desirable. However, sitting here might just end up extending the issue of being cold. However, there also is hope that somehow I end up warming up with little, if any effort exuded and if I get up to warm up, then that chance might go away as I will no longer be sitting here waiting tow arm up and all of that other tuff that might just happen from sitting here and doing very little.
Maybe I should not worry about this and just get on with it as all I am doing by not getting up is increasing the risk of staying slightly cold for a longer period of time, when if I take affirmative action I will almost guarantee my success and warm up and then be able to get on with other thigs and that will be some sort of victory. That is something that I need to keep in mind and I know that, as much as I want to be lazy, there just isn’t going to be an easy way out if I stay lazy, though there will.
I guess that, now that I have thought of all of this, I should stop postponing the desirable and get on with it all. I should take on this challenge and leave my room and warm up and then go to somewhere else in the house and warm up a little more. Once I have done this, then perhaps it will be a good time to return to the bedroom. Then I will be in a better position to sit here and be warm. Maybe I can grab a few blankets on the way and then have them wrapped around me in order to stay warm and then once I have done that I will truly be in the best position for myself to be in at that particular juncture in time.
Then again, maybe someone else can grab blankets for me, though that too requires effort.
The time it took to write one thousand words: 10:44:58
I was hoping to write some sort of loose fiction with this one.
Instead I didn’t but I’m content with the result.
It’s a bit of a mess but I think it ties into the suggested indecision a little better than some of my other writings.
Written at home.