Alright, the last thing now. I kind of made it. Might fall a bit short, but I think I’ll get there in the end.
This has been the most productive I’ve been in a long, long time. Is that a good thing? I’m not sure. I’m not sure right now and I don’t think I want to be sure. This is a difficult thing to maintain, but of course I can be proud about what I’ve done here, or something.
Do I have the right to be proud? Maybe. However, there remains a lot of work to go before I can determine any success found here in these words and the next ones. I don’t know if I can actually do that. I don’t know if I can lay claim to what I’ve done here as a success. Once more it is more of an experiment and it reveals things and smashes others. Therefore I will just declare this as a thing that I’ve done and I’ll look to move on. That might be the best way to proceed. Be better to not think too much about what I have and have not done and instead just get on with things. Look for a way forward. Explore and explore and then explore some more.
Still, I feel I’ve done alright. Even though I’m writing this in a way that is perhaps a little too much of an attempt at going fast, I feel I’ve done okay. I sort of made it and in that I guess I’ve done better than usual. If I could keep up at this rate I’d probably be happy. However, I don’t think I can do this every day.
I think the biggest thing I’ve learned here is that, so long as I have certain pressures on me I can churn out a lot of stuff in a short period of time. Whether any of it is good is something else to worry about, but the thing is that I’ve managed to get this done in a moth where I’m incredibly drained due to poor choices when it comes to participating in events when I’m already stretched thin. Such is life.
I think now that I’ve said that I’m really not sure as to what else I can say. I need to rest and I need to do that soon and perhaps this was not the best thing to do right now, but what am I going to do? I needed to update and I needed to keep on going. I’ve done that now and now I’m here. I’m sitting here and I’m in front of a screen and I’m banging this out in the hopes that I get it all wrapped up quickly, but I’m also tired and recognising the need to stop.
With that all said I guess I will now find the end to this bit of writing. I will then rest and I will rest in a way that implies my resting.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:47:62
I finished this about sixteen to seventeen minutes ago and took a brief break before uploading.
Not my finest writing but far from my worst.
Written at home.