What a dull afternoon.
Now to be fair, there is a lot I could be doing right now and now that I’m starting to do things, I guess that counts as doing something but right now it’s a really dull afternoon and that is due to my waiting for some files to move from one location to another so then I can move some other files to the first location, then move them to the second location and move the original set of files to the first location.
As I’m writing this I’m realising that this would be going a lot faster had I used one of my external hard drives to do this, but alas, I did not do that and now I’m waiting for something to finish that could’ve finished a few hours ago.
So I sat here and I churned out a draft script for something that may happen but likely won’t and that was time well spent, but now I’ve no idea what else to do… other than the things that I am about to do, of course.
I am here in this space of nothingness and I can see the next thing approaching but I don’t know what to do now and that bothers me as, usually, I’d spent the time procrastinating due to not knowing what to do, and yet here I am not knowing what to do and procrastinating and not knowing what to do about it as something is approaching and I will be doing that, but for now it’s not here and so I am stuck here twiddling my thumbs in the hope that something just approaches and tells me that it is what I am meant to be doing.
Maybe instead of hoping I need to seize the opportunity by the horns and lead it to water so that it can have a bit of a sip. That way then I am doing something and then something else will approach and I’ll ride off into the sunset which will actually be the sunrise, but upside down.
It’s a tricky balance, all these things but I’m sure that it can be struck somehow, but in this space I wait for the next thing to arrive. I feel like I should be doing something and I am not doing anything and that’s not the best thing in the world, but I wait and I wait and hopefully whatever it is that comes next arrives soon as I can see it but it is taking its time and I don’t like this taking of the time as I want to do things now. I want things to happen now but it’s not happening and so I don’t know what to do other than twiddle my thumbs and sit here with a blank expression in the hopes that time speeds up, then slows down as I’ve a dull afternoon happening and maybe that is actually a good thing.
It’s probably a good thing.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:01:14
Pretty fast and mostly coherent which is surprising, I think.
Written at home.