More stress, more need to unwind. Not sure why I’m doing this right now as there are other, far more pressing things that I should be taking care of but they can wait.
Sitting here, waiting for the day to pass. Waiting for it to come to another end. Worried about not doing enough but not doing enough. Wondering where this is all going.
Thinking about the end of this little blog. Watching it slowly approach. Still doing nothing and spending a lot of time doing nothing but could be doing something. Could be doing a lot of things but need to work out what and all that other stuff.
Trying to write at a speed that I want to say is faster than usual. Wrist is holding out.
Where am I going with this?
See, I was hoping to write something that would be interesting but all I’m doing here is writing fragments. There is nothing that connects these other than their lack of connection, so there is something that connects these and so… I don’t know what else I can say about the whole thing.
Should go for a walk. Should stretch the legs. Should probably practise guitar a bit more to help build the wrist strength back up and all that.
Should do a lot of things.
Still, the day is nice and it drifts on by and instead of changing this around I keep on writing in fragments and so I guess all this is is a series of fragments that don’t really express much. Feels like a stretch. Feels like a bit of a reach.
Then again, they could say a lot more than I suggest. There’s always what is not said that comes through in implication and so… yeah.
Wondering what I will do about lunch. I should go for a walk. Look at the clouds. Need to be walking more. Need to increase my fitness. Need to stop wasting the time that I have as I wait for approval for a place to move into. It’s a lot of waiting. Better spent doing something than spent being stressed out about what is or is not happening.
Need to try and go from there and then do other things.
I could be drawing. I miss drawing. I miss a lot of things when I don’t do them for a while. Pretty standard but that’s okay I guess. Standard works pretty well in most cases and it’s not something that we should shoot down. Yeah, weird is great and all but what is weird is usually due to lack of experience with that thing. Weird things usually aren’t all that weird.
I think that I should look at resting for a bit, but maybe in a few hours. Might try to do some other things first. Get some things out of the way but am preferring to spend time stressed out. I could be productive
It’d be great to be able to properly relax.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:14:08
This one is a bit of a mess but I think that it works for roughly the first third. From there it loses something by becoming less scattered, I think.
Written at home.