I was hoping to get back to doing this stuff sooner after moving than I have but it has been a tough time. A lot of trying to hold on and resist the urge to sell my camera gear so I’m no longer living paycheck to paycheck, and also due to being tired of feeling like I have to work harder and try and be better than everyone who grew up with opportunity.

A lot of job rejections whilst being told to keep on trying despite almost three years of trying to get a better job and having people look at my resume to make it more appealing.

Being reminded as to why I don’t want to go into academia.

Growing up poor can be hard, as can getting out of being poor. It’s easy to tell someone that that’s life and to suck it up when you’re in a better position; the problems of the poor are easy to ignore until someone in the middle or higher classes may be impacted, which the problems then seemingly are actually considered. For those underneath it’s business as usual, however.

Things are a massive struggle right now and I’m still going, but I’m getting close to packing everything in and calling it a day. I’ve been trying to get off the ground for a long time and I’m tired of people telling me to keep trying. At this point I’d much rather just work something I don’t have to care about and drop everything that I do as, at least that way I might have some semblance of financial security.

I wanted to redo something I did a while ago and this one felt the most appropriate. I included the original which is called Frustration. I can’t remember why but I’m sure it was apt at the time.

Pressure was started and finished yesterday, and Frustration was done in 2015.

Edit: Turns out Frustration was done in 2014 and I shared it here. Still leaving it here to highlight the “change” better.

I hope you enjoy.