I’ve a few more minutes before my lunch break ends and so I figured I’d try and get something out. I probably should be doing other things but this feels like a good use of my time. It’s not, but it feels like it is and so this is what I’m going to stick with for the time being.

Maybe I’ll stop part of the way through and then do something else. Maybe this won’t last, but few things do and so that’s not something for which I’m going to concern myself too much with. Besides which, it’s a nice day and I feel like doing a bit more writing to add on to the massive amounts of wasted space I’ve already created.

There’s a tree outside this particular window and I don’t know what kind of tree it is. I don’t really care to find out either, and that’s okay. It’s nice and it’s pleasant, and it doesn’t seem to be trying to take over everything. I’m good with that.

It’s a nice and relaxing time inside but it’s a bit cold but that’s okay. There’s a sense of peace. Things seem calm, if even for a short window. It’s just something I can appreciate and appreciate it I will, or I won’t. Probably won’t but for now I’ll say I will.

Sometimes it’s good to take time away from spending time and instead you just need to waste time. Not always, but sometimes. Need to find the right balance and that seems to be something that can vary a bit, depending on the day and all that.

Need to find the will to finish this off too.

Slowly, yet surely I find myself being trained of the energy required to get this done and so now I need to race on forward. I no longer have time to relax; I only have time to rush. I am fighting a losing battle, but surely I can get through this and then feel confident that I’ve done what I could to get to where I needed to be, though I don’t need to be at the end of this and can easily cast it aside, but I choose not to as I’ve already put in some of the work and so I want to try and finish the work and… yeah.

Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe I should just stop here and take it easy. Maybe I shouldn’t be rushing through this as it could end up creating a determined quality that could be classified as poor. Right now I’m aiming for above that. I want to achieve something that is, at the very least, at something akin to needing improvement, which is one whole step above poor. However, now that I’ve started I cannot stop and so, even though my energy is depleting at an accelerated pace I am nearly where I want to be with this and so there is not much reason for me to stop right now.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:13:24

I think I had something initially and then I lost it. Tried to spin this into something else but perhaps the transition was too jarring.

Written at home.