A lot of things to do today. Going to be a busy one, but a busy one is a good one.

Need to write a rebuttal that won’t be a rebuttal. Need to fight time and day, and need to get on with the getting on and listen to some less Pearl Jam. Maybe I need to listen to more Pearl Jam.

Anyway, I think that things are in order and I’ll get through the day, and I think that if I start starting on things I’ll find my way toward the end of it all, and that would be pretty cool. That would be good.

Thinking about what things mean and what things don’t mean, and thinking about how I can go about using my words to write something that means something. Looking for meaning in the words that I use, and looking for narrative to construct bridges that cross all things and make things neat.

Characters in games often lack depth and rather it is suggested. In some games this is more obvious than others, of course. Often characters aren’t written as characters, but rather representatives of personalities and moods and emotions and concepts, and it’s probably due to the difficulty of writing someone as complex, because you only have so much time and money when it comes to writing characters for games. At the same time, you have to wonder if there can’t be more effort.

It often feels like the quality of writing improves, but not the exploration of character, if that makes sense.

Look, what I’m doing right now is throwing a bunch of thoughts together and I’ll flesh them out later. I just need to get it all down now as if I don’t, then I’ll forget and it’ll float on away, and that’s it. I need to make sure these are down because, perhaps it’s not that I want to make meaning, but rather I want to explore meaning. Does that make sense? I hope it does. It seems to, but I’m not entirely sure. I’m not entirely certain.

We try to get things forward where we can, and we try to looking for meaning and attach to things as time flows forward, and maybe we miss the mark a lot. But is that so bad? Where does personal meaning get invalidated? What is the cutoff point? I don’t know, and I wouldn’t claim to know either. I don’t think I can quantify something so easily, and I don’t know if I’d want to invalidate people’s personal views on things. At the same time, I do think there is often a foundational meaning to some things, and that shouldn’t be ignored.

Where am I going with this? This is too thoughtful for this hour of the morning. I just want to keep going with scattered crap that means nothing at the end of the day, and I don’t want to be exploring exploration. I just want to get my mess and silliness on.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:53:83

Another bit of a mess, but this one is okay. I’m not fussed with how this turned out as some of it is a set of building blocks, so to speak.

Written at work.