Alright, so I have no idea as to what is going on. I woke up at around five in the morning and it has now been over seven hours and I am yet to even begin. It is now the afternoon and I am still in the mode of preparation. Need to get all the stuff done. Is this what they refer to as “fatigue”? I do not know, for I do not care. Need to get into the act of doing things.
Need to do the gliding thing and treat this as a graceful act rather than a violent aggression toward the keyboard to make the words that form the visual of the words that then get scanned by your eyes and processed into something visible so that you can then READ what it is that I am putting down.
I need to try and tune out the shrill sounds of birds dancing on a roof as it is rather distracting and that distraction is something that I would prefer to live my life without as that means then that I have one less excuse to blame things on and thus be more productive, or something, but then again the almighty beast that is being tired engulfed me a few hours ago and now I do not know as to what it is that I need to do to get past it. The COFFEE did not do an effective job and perhaps that means that I need more of it in order to be able to function and get through the rest of the day. This being tired is hard and all that stuff.
See, I can do that. I can have more COFFEE, but there are ramifications. There is a delicate balance that I must strike and having more COFFEE is not a good idea all of the time. It might clash with my plans to, in a few hours, have TEA. I don’t want that clash. Want to keep it all running smooth and easy. Would rather the smooth and easy and get to the end of it all over having too much caffeine, or somehow not enough. Might get me to places I don’t want to through the process of overshooting.
So I say all of this and yet all I really need to do is knuckle down and work on things and then get them to where they need to be so that I can then work on more things. It is a process of working and working on the process is what I need to do, though not right now. What I need to do at the current moment is just get all of this done, then that done and then keep on working. However, there may be a slight digression for the opportunity to go for a walk as going for a walk is a nice thing. Depends, really. I’ll see how everything else pans out, but maybe instead I’ll do other things.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 04:51:96
Rather quick, this one was.
Bit of a fatigue-induced mess.
Written at home.