As today is Wednesday, I am asking a lot of questions that involve the word “when”, as that seems appropriate. Not sure how, but it just does, so that is what I am doing.
When does work commence? When is work over? When is a good time to go to the toilet? And so on and so forth.
Perhaps it is in asking these questions that I truly discover myself for the first time in my life. I peel back the layers and, lo and behold, it was me all along. That would be a surprise of unsurprising proportions, and I am fine with that, I think. Maybe not as fine with it as I would like, but fine with it still, or something.
Anyway, soon work starts and so on and so forth and I sit here and hope that once more it does not get too warm, but I’m thinking of things. I feel like resting and perhaps I will have that chance to rest, but of course there is no telling as to whether I will or will not be able to until once I get to the end of the day, in which case the ability to rest is almost a given, but only almost. Seldom it is guaranteed and I don’t like that, though maybe I do. To be honest, I’m note entirely sure, but maybe that’s a good thing., Maybe it is good to have a little bit of uncertainty creep in and do all of the things that uncertainty does, though maybe not right now. I do know that I’d much rather an easy, relaxed morning as well as day as there are things that I want to do and take care of and those things would require the work day to be slower than what I normally am dealing with. By normally, I mean at the present moment how things are going with work. Pardon the odd syntax there, if there is any.
So anyway, I think that really what I should be doing at the present moment is going off to have a shower and then panic a little as I feel the squeeze of work and its indelible jaws clamp over me whilst I struggle to get other things out of the way. It is a bit of a dance, but not one that I cannot handle and so I must try to make the most of what time I have before it makes the most of me. Sort of a weird position to be in sometimes, but sometimes you do have to do what you have to do, and apparently for me that means having a bit of panic and stress in my life before things get easy and I become lazy for the rest of the day.
However, today I will not be lazy. I will actually get things done and get them all done as quickly and efficiently as possible, but instead I’ll just be quite lazy.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 04:58:67
Fast and kind of okay. Bit of repetition and doesn’t quite flow, but it sort of makes sense.
Written at home.