Alright, so it has been a long day and I’m leaving everything to the last proverbial minute once more. It’s not a good way to go about things, let me tell you, but I do it sometimes and sometimes I do it a lot, and sometimes that’s just the way that things go. Still, there are better ways to go about things and it is up to me to go about those things in a better way.
In the lives of others it is up to them to go about things in a better way in the way that they can go about being better about those things. However, right now that is not what I am trying to focus on, and I’m also trying to not focus on saying that these are the things of which I am trying not to focus on. There are other things of which I am trying to focus on and they will get my focus until they no longer do get my focus, but for now I need to try and do better at bettering the things of which need bettering through the act of me being better at being better at bettering those things.
Now that that is out of the way I can focus on the other things. However, I know not how to cast my focus in this particular situation as I’ve already stretched thin and now need to get into a position where I no longer am scratching. I need to compress once more and then resume being my compressed self so I can move onto not being stretched thin and therefore might be able to find the depth and meaning that I so desire to find on a daily basis. Perhaps I will not find it here, but I am sure that with a bit of work I can get into a position where I do eventually find it.
There may be some journeying to reach that goal, but journeying is not what I want to do at the moment. What I want to do is just have it all happen and I want to be able to sit here and do other things whilst this thing happens, so therefore I want to be able to multitask without putting in the effort required to multitask.
It’s a hard life.
So anyway, the thing is that in order to be able to do this, I’d need to do a lot of setting up in order to make sure that everything is as good and ready as it can be, but then I’d also need to make sure that it all would be better than just perfunctory, and now that I think about it, there is no way that I can avoid effort, so really I should just knuckle down and do the thing and out in the effort and then get to the end of all of this content in the knowledge that I managed to better the thing.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 04:58:23
It felt quick and it came out easy.
Silly stuff, but it was fun.
Written at home.