And so I’ve a little spare time so I’m gonna do what I usually do, which is go into this as aimlessly as possible and let the mind take over and guide where the words go, but I didn’t know where they go; only the order in which they go is what i know but I don’t want to get stuck on that particular loop today. I’d rather not.

I want to write with meaning and expression and fine the way to get everything across so you all understand what it is that I need to get across. However, I don’t know as to how I can go about doing that other than through using the words that I have handy for the purpose of using in a way that gets things across, but of course I’m not the best at getting things across and so I can only hope that somehow all of this ends up making the sense that I require it to do so in order to get across meaning and expression in a way that truly expresses meaning and expression in a way that is most effective when approached through the action of reading words as they are written by someone who wrote them, which in this case would be me, though of course I don’t want to admit to that, but I have to as now I am faced with some thing that I need to be faced with and it is only I who can combat it and fight it back and then try and make everything better, rather than worse and all of those other things and so on and so forth.

However, I find myself at an impasse as what I want to do is write serious things that connect and reach out, yet I can’t help but throw myself into the realm of silliness and mess and thus I end up creating things that might be interesting to read at some point, but ultimately are passable at best, though perhaps this is exacerbated by my continuing to churn out as much as I possibly can at any given time and moment in the hopes that something happens and then from that something something else happens and then a chain of things happen, creating a link of sorts.

Anyway, I think this has mostly run its course and I don’t know as to where else I should try and take this bit of writing, so let us consider this the ending phase, where I look to end this in a way that sort of makes sense but feels awkward as I need to work out how to cram as many words in as possible, but not go overboard as I don’t want to throw the whole thing off. Doing that might cause more issues further along and so right now it’s all a careful balancing act so as to make sure that the end comes easily, and with only the necessary words.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:11:31

Early on I was aiming to try and get something across, though I dropped the ball and went into silliness.

Written at home.