So it has been a while since I’ve attempted one of these, but I don’t think I’ll be trying to get six posts done as there is a lot of work to go. Also, I probably should not have started with writing a lengthy post, but here we are and here it is and here is where I will do the thing.

I’m not sure as to how any of this will turn out and to be honest, I don’t think any of this will be good, but I need to exercise my brain in a way and I feel an itch to get things done really quickly, so we’ll just have to see. We’ll just have to strap ourselves in and see what happens and where it all goes and all that other stuff.

So anyway, I’m sitting here and I’m writing this out and it’s not far in and already I am struggling. Still, I think that I will somehow get through all of this. Maybe I can get everything done within the minute amount of forty. If I can, I’m chuffed. I’m golden and all those other things. However, if I cannot, then… well, something something and so on and so forth and you get the idea.

No harm in trying and all of that but I need to know my limits and my limits are at around the hour mark. It is then when I will move to go to bed and rest and take it easy. I don’t think anything else will happen once I reach the hour. Once there, that’s it; there’s no anything else.

Well, maybe there is, but I am not going to explore that right now. Instead I’m just going to keep on powering on and hope for the best. Maybe I’ll expect the worst, but the best is what I will hope for as the best is what I want to come to fruition. Definitely don’t want the worst, but maybe I will give up early and in giving up early I will let go of all the things that drive me and then fall into another vortex of disappointment and that is something that I don’t want to do, if I am to be honest. It has been a while since I was last in one and I don’t need to be in another one.

Maybe I’ve been in one this whole time and really, the only thing that is different here is that I’m falling into another vortex of disappointment. There was one and I’ve hopped into another. How like me.

So anyway, I think I’m near where the middle is usually associated and as you can tell, I’m already in a position where I don’t know as to where I am going. Need to work on my typing a bit as it seems my ability to write has gone a little out the window. I’m looking at all the mistakes and it’s a lot more than usual. I think I’ve slipped a lot and so the need for improvement rings outward and stretches across galaxies to try and reach me and fill me with the inspiration and motivation that I need to get on with things and move forward.

Will it get here? Will I get through this? I am unable to tell, for the future is unwritten and the only thing that holds true is the uncertainty of everything in this writing and my ability to work within the time constraints I’ve imposed upon myself. Oh well; we’ll just have to see what happens.

Now I’m nearing the end and I keep on racing in the hopes that I get this all done in the time, but I’m losing hope as I’ve already become distracted. So much editing I’ll need to do and so much tweaking of other things, but tweaking won’t happen here. What will happen here is just the editing of al the errors that I’ve made. However, there will be hoping that all of this makes sense in some manner.

Perhaps there is too much sense of panic and stress in all of this and therefore I should dial things back a bit. I should try and relax and take it easy and hope that in doing that I find the true way forward. However, until then I will keep on churning this out. I will keep on writing and in that writing I will get the things done. Then once the things are done I will move on and go to wherever it is that I need to go. I hope that I get there safely, but no promises of course. There are so many things that I need to worry about and I’m not even addressing that as this is not meant to be about anything other than this hour of power that I am engaging within. I should be writing about that and not distracting myself as the distracting that I am doing here is leading to a mess that is greater than I would like. Still, it is a thing that is happening and it is happening right now, so I’ll just keep on going and keep on churning and hope for the best and all of that other stuff. Maybe I will get there in the end, but there is no telling right now.

I don’t think I’ve much left to churn out, but I do know that I am getting there and so now I am in the phase of closing. I need to choose my words carefully. I need to consider what it is that I will be getting across in the limited time that I have. I don’t know if I will do it with any success, but it will happen somehow and I will get there and already I am feeling done and tired, but it will be done and I will do the things and I will find the words that close this.

The time it took to write one thousand words: 09:31:04

Fast and messy. Really that’s what this blog usually is anyway, so not different from the norm.

Written at home.