A long day of warmth and ice pick headaches keep on coming, but that is the way of the day and it will soon be over in some manner, whether that be of the obvious and straightforward, or the gradual and indirect. Who knows, really?
So I sit here and I think about whatever it is that I think about and as I think about it I think about how I need some rest tonight. I will try and give myself that rest, or allow myself that rest, but before all of that I will surely cram too much into too little and then stress myself out some more. That’s just the way that I operate sometimes and it’s not necessarily a good way to go about things.
In saying all of that, how I am operating right now is in a state of relaxation as I want to feel relaxed and one needs to work hard to feel relaxed, unless they don’t need to work at all in order to feel relaxed, in which case, awesome. However, I’m working at it right now as I need to relax so that I can feel relaxed as it is time to relax, so why am I writing right now?
Well, I’m doing it now as I wanted to earlier but I didn’t. Therefore, the time to write is right now as opposed to earlier. I also want to write right now as I haven’t done as much as I would have liked over the past few weeks and… yeah.
So now I don’t know as to where I can go with this, but I do know that I’m doing what I can and in doing that I am making some sort of progress toward a thing that cannot necessarily be measured except in retrospect when it no longer matters, though it doesn’t matter right now so I don’t know as to why I’m mentioning it now. Guess I’m just looking to write the words that I’m writing.
Anyway, now that I am here and it is dark and the day shall soon end (as in the whole day and not just the time of day that is the daytime), I guess I should look at another swift and easy wrapping up of the words and their combinations to form sentences. However, I’m not sure as to what I should be doing to make this all look clever and swift and deft and all of those other things, so really what is going to happen is I’m going to be clunky and in my being clunky I’m going to find a way to end this awkwardly. However, that may not happen and the final sentence may make the sense that it needs to make and then I’ll be stuck here, scratching my head about this whole happening and I won’t know as to where I shall go or what I shall do, but at least I may feel some sort of relaxation.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:32:30
Not great. I really feel that had I written something earlier, it would not have been this.
Written at home.