It is afternoon and I’ve had all day to start on things, but now is a time to start and so I start now. Should’ve done so earlier, but lost time is not something that can be made up for and so I’m just going to keep on going and see what happens now.
Humidity feels like it should be in the air, but it is not and so today is an odd day. It is like many other days, but it is odd. It feels shaped by something beyond my reach, but then again, most days are, so I don’t know as to what I’m going on about here and instead of continuing the thread I shall drop it and move toward something else and hope that it leads to something greater than whatever it is that I am going on about.
I think I need to have a bit of a rest. I need to lie down and fall asleep and let my dreams take over and guide the narrative to whatever place they will guide to. There will be adventure, but then there may be no adventure whatsoever. There may be nothing at all. There may be no dreaming to speak of and that could be a fine thing, but the hope is that there are dreams of the deep variety and I want to be held within those dreams. I want to be held by the dreams and I want them to lead to something. I don’t know what that something would be, but I do know that I would want it to be something that is comforting and relieving of a lack of sleep, as, whilst I have had sleep, I feel a lack of it.
I feel that sleep has left me and really, all that I am doing is closing my eyes for a while and somehow that provides the illusion of rest. In feeling that illusion I can delude myself for a little while. It is not a long while, but often it is enough to get through the day.
Maybe this is how everyone goes about thing. No one person is getting enough sleep and we just delude ourselves into believing that we do get enough. Maybe that is how everyone operates and I’ve never known this and all of this theorising has finally allowed me to get to this point in my life. I finally have uncovered the truth and in doing that I can now move forward and find a way to make sure that everyone is getting enough sleep to be able to function and be healthy.
Now, there is a lot of work in taking on such a thing, but it’s something that must be done and so I think I can get it done. However, I need to deal with this entering a state of being able to dream for a while first as that will guide me to the answers that will lead to success.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:03:50
This feels like it went somewhere and I think that is a good thing.
However, it took a while to start.
Written at home.