I should probably do that thing that involves complaining about the cold, but I think that can wait.

I feel energised in a way that I haven’t felt since the last time I felt this energised which wasn’t that long ago. I feel like I can take on this desk and I feel like I can take on my job.

I feel like it would be a bit better if it wasn’t overcast outside, but you take the good with anything else that isn’t considered good at certain points of the day based on certain mindsets and all that other stuff.

I think that I can get this done with gusto and vigour but I don’t know if I will. There’s just so much and I keep going around in circles. I never get to the centre but it always seems like I will. I’d like to believe that I will, but there’s just so much to squeeze out and there’s no stopping all of that and so on and so forth.

Maybe the issues is that I keep circling within the circle when instead I could just make a beeline for the centre, but then what? What would I do? Where would I go from there? Would there be any point? Perhaps I would discover something new and finally realise something, but what would be the point of all of that without enough knowledge gained beforehand? Sure, it’s good and all to finally reach a goal and finally get what one wants (assuming I even want something out of this, of course), but there’s no gain if you don’t understand what it is that you’ve reached, or have no idea as to how to make use of it.

Of course this depends on the circumstance as sometimes the beeline does enable you to then go into the next stage. There are other things as well, but in this particular instance that is not what I’m looking to explore, though I doubt I really am looking to explore anything. There is little, if anything to explore, but I will keep on going on with what it is that I’m going on with and so we’ll just see what happens.

I will keep on doing the circling and in that circling I will keep moving toward the centre. The closer I get, the more I will hope I know and understand and then I hope that once I reach the centre I will be able to make use of what it is that is in the centre, assuming there is even any use at all. Maybe I will not know, but that might be okay as I’d have gained a lot during the journey, so… yeah.

Then again, maybe I should just leave the whole thing entirely and go find another thing to circle around and slowly work toward the centre. Maybe it will provide all that I seek and then some, but then again, maybe it won’t.

Who really knows?

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:41:37

I think I did kind of okay with this one. I teased out most of something, got a bit stuck and then kept going but… ehhhh.

Written at home.