So I sit here and all that other stuff and I don’t want to go on about that right now. Attempting to get this written in under four minutes and so concentration is key. Will I get there? I do not know. However, I know that today I won’t as I am already slowing down and that is not a good thing. I need to go faster and not slower. However, slowing is what I am doing and so this is already cursed. Maybe that is too strong a word to use here but that is how it feels and so I will carry on and be dramatic and all of those other things that I will go on about and so on an so forth.
Then again, there is always hope and there is always determination. I am determined to get to the end of this at the very least but I need to pick up the speed so I can get there. This is strenuous and stressful but I feel driven and that is a good thing. However, I should feel driven about the right things and this probably is not the right thing to feel driven about. Still, I’m pushing through my sluggish hands and the cold is making them sluggish and I am pushing through and perhaps that is extraordinary, if only due to the sheer laziness that I have grappled with over the past few weeks and months.
I will just keep on pushing through and hoping for the best and all that other stuff. I hope there isn’t much spelling that I need to fix but I don’t know at this present moment. I’m so on focus when it comes to looking at the keyboard and I don’t know if any of this is coming through clearly, but its more of an exercise than anything else really and so none of that matters right how. What matters is getting to the end and hoping I get to the end in one piece. I don’t think I will but I might and I keep on going and hoping and all those other things.
Still, with all of that being said, so long as I stay focused I can get there. I can get somewhere and that somewhere is the end of this and at the end of this there will be the sense of accomplishment regardless of if I get under four minutes or not. That’s okay and then I will move toward whatever else it is that I will crap on about for the day, assuming that I crap on about anything else at all. There is a good chance that I will, but there also is a good chance that I won’t.
What am I saying here? I do not know, but I imagine that it involves things and it involving things is something that I always do, but that is for another day as right now getting to the end matters more.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 04:26:11
This was rough to write due to my hands being pretty cold.
Not good writing but it served a purpose and I’m somewhat okay with the result.
Written at home.