Giving it another go as my hands are warmer right now and so that might just mean that I will be able to do to it again. I think. I do not actually know as to what it means, but I can only hope and in hoping there is the chance for success, so long as I see it to the end and see to it that I make sure that I stay committed to the task at hand.
You see, there are many things and seeing that there are may things, I have chosen one of the things. I am talking about the doing of things, of course, but this is the thing that I have chosen to do. Sure, I could do some editing as that is required. I could also do some reading which is also required. I could also work on reviews that I need to work on, but I have chosen this. I have chosen to do this at this particular juncture in time and I don’t know if I will get to the end in one piece but I imagine I will. I also imagine that it does not matter too much as once more I am being dramatic about something that there is no need to be dramatic about. Such is the way of things I suppose.
So anyway, it is the evening and I am mashing the keyboard a lot harder than I need to, but that is what I am currently doing and so I continue on. I need to beat the timer this time. Well, I don’t, but I would like to. I have a strong desire to be faster than the timer and so I keep on going and I keep on typing and I keep trying to get my thoughts about the action of racing the timer down in a way that expresses some sort of coherency, but there is no telling until the whole thing is over.
There is jazz playing in the background and perhaps it is the perfect kind of jazz for what I am doing right now. It is nice and it flows well and it has a sense of energy to it, but also a sense of calm, if that make sense. Maybe I just find it highly inviting and that makes me think that it has more calm in it than it really does. I do have to admit that it certainly has a liveliness and it certainly has some sort of power in it and it is welcoming in ways that imply that it is welcoming and so on and so forth.
I think I got stuck there for a moment and so I will continue to race on. There is a goal that I am trying to reach and trying to reach it is what I will continue to do and so in continuing to try and reach that goal I will continue to try and reach that goal.
There still is a while to go.
And so I continue to race on in the hopes that I will make this in under eight minutes. There are thoughts that continue to run through my head and I keep racing to try and get them down but nothing is coming out. Such is the way of things in this bit of writing. Maybe I should slow down but right now I do not want to. I want to try and reach what it is that I am trying to reach. I might get there; I might not. Whoever, what I will do is get all of this down in a timely manner, as they say. However, what applies here is hard to tell and so I keep on going and I try to keep on going at an accelerated pace.
I think I can do it, but I need to keep on going. I need to try and get as many words down as I possibly can. Should try using shorter words and I think I mostly am, but there is no telling as to what will come next.
Sometimes writing like this is really an awful experience. It hurts the hands and it leads to very little being said. However, it is good practise and I need to keep that in mind. I need to keep the pace and I need to try and keep on going. It still is a form of exercise and it still is a form of skill development. I am still learning and developing and perhaps I am also improving in a way. However, I should be more careful. I don’t want to hurt myself and I don’t want to make it harder for me to write.
So I keep on going and I keep on trying and I try to get to the end of all of this in the hopes that I get there with a goal completed, and maybe I will. Maybe I will get there. Maybe I will not. However, I will keep on trying as that is what I want to do at the present moment.
Now is the hard part as there is a minute left and so I need to try and get as many words as I can down but I do not think that I can do it. However, I tried and trying is the main thing and so I will keep on trying. I will try to get there and I will keep on trying until I get to the end. That is the point of this and so I keep on going and I keep on trying and almost there. I have almost made it, but I will miss the mark this time, but perhaps next time I won’t.
I really do not want to read back on all of this as I know it is a mess of thoughts but I will have to. However, that is something for later and not now.
The time it took to write one thousand words: 08:32:56
This probably wasn’t the best thing for me to do. I’m glad I did it but I think I should’ve spent the time doing other things.
Written at home.