Homebush Road

For a period in 2011 and early 2012, I lived on Homebush Road, near Liverpool Road. It wasn’t a great place to live by any stretch of the imagination, and it was a stressful time, too. Living with people I didn’t quite want to, but felt I had no choice in the matter. I’d only been living out of home for around two years when we moved, and I’d only lived in one place. I didn’t have the experience, and didn’t feel I could afford a place on my own.

The place that we moved from, the lease was terminated due to the actions of my housemates. That wasn’t the best place either, but it was an awesome place to live. Ideal location, decent size. Should’ve taken better care of it though. Anyway.

So I’ve been driving along Homebush Road a fair bit recently, and I was thinking about hot it’s a bit of a boring road to drive along, but that’s okay. It’s another urban road; it doesn’t need to be appealing. But I’ve been driving along it and I’ve been thinking about how it’s changed, or rather how the place I lived in has changed. I’d been along it a number of years ago and seen the changes then, but now that I’m passing it more often, I’m thinking about it more.

It’s changed in that it no longer exists.

What was one a cheap house is now a set of apartments, far too conspicuous for the area they’re in, though hopefully better designed than the house that once was. But it does feel cold and extreme even though it isn’t, and that’s part of gentrification, really.

But I lived in this house and it was and intense one, in part due to issues with the real estate. It’s one that loved to threaten litigation against people who would leave bad Google reviews, which was almost everyone who reviewed them and it got to the point where they removed their listing on Google Reviews. They also threatened to sue another website for people reviewing them leaving bad reviews, which the website then commented on on their listing for the real estate. Early on this real estate sent us a rather exceptional bill which also contained threats, though that was overturned. Plenty of other issues too, including a rather suspect subdivision of the house.

It was also intense due to the personalities in the house, and just how full-on a lot of things were. This was a place that was crawling with cockroaches when we moved in, so we bombed the house and then taped up as many gaps as we could. The roaches stayed well away from everything after that, unless you were eating take out, in which you’d start see them coming out of the walls. This was a place where housemates would be randomly antagonistic toward others until they were shown their being wrong or they calmed down and moved on, leaving someone or everyone else with the wreckage. It was a house with some great parties and some great problems.

Public transport was good around the area, but it was also not. Missing the bus could mean waiting a while which could then mean being late to anywhere, and there were times where I was. Realistically I should’ve been in the habit of arriving early at the time, and I kind of was but kind of wasn’t. It’s one that took a while to develop. But I remember times when I would run across to the other side of Homebush Road and then put on my shoes as I didn’t want to miss the bus. Poor planning on my part.

There were many times when I’d walk to the home from Strathfield station, and it was somewhere between thirty and forty minutes of walking. I’d walk along Homebush Road, up and down its hills, and it was generally pleasant. Arcade Fire’s The Suburbs came out in 2010 and I never cared much for them, but I remember being at Ewe’s place when he was living in McMahon’s Point and he’d put on “Modern Man” which I both liked and didn’t, and I ended up getting the album. In 2011, walking along that road, some of it was more appealing. I think hearing “Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains)” somewhere may have helped. I’ve listened to the album here and there since but it hasn’t grabbed me in the same way, and with what came forward about Arcade Fire’s frontman a few years ago, they’re not a band I’m too enthused about returning to.

But it was an album that matched that walk really well.

I remember doing some shopping with my ex (the one whose dumping of me in 2014 led to my writing here more) and we had our bikes, and had to cycle back home in the rain with all of this food. She was staying the night and the rain was thick and dangerous, and visibility was minimal, and we made it back in one piece, thankfully, but it was scary. I remember cycling around the are stoned for around twenty minutes on a sunny day, and that was a great feeling and one I never want to repeat It was far too dangerous.

There was one party where we were all getting stoned and my friend Frank and his partner were there. So was my ex. We were ordering food from a nearby restaurant. My housemates and I would get takeout form them regularly, and get it delivered. They’d always end up taking a while because they’d be confused about the address. They were around forty, fifty metres away from us, and on the other side of Liverpool Road. We were too lazy to go in and collect it most of the time.

But anyway, Frank always took time to order food. He’d go over a menu and weigh up his options far more thoroughly than most people. That, combined with weed meant he was extra slow that evening. It was to the point where some people had forgotten that there was a food order being placed.

Frank got stuck particularly on their offering of crab omelette. He started getting deep into what it was. Far too deep, and he was going on about it for a while. When it got to the point where he said something along the lines of “Do they stuff the crab with omelette? Is the omelette in the crab?”, I told him that it was just a crab omelette, that it was an omelette with crab in it. I then got up and went to my bedroom because I couldn’t handle it anymore. He, his partner and my ex came in soon after to make sure I was okay, and I was but I just could not deal with his exploring the idea of a crab omelette anymore.

Near us and also on Liverpool Road was a liquor store, and I’m not sure if it’s there still. I remember seeing it once again years ago, but in going past it these days it hasn’t stuck out to me. It was a pretty regular one, but they had this alcohol (I think it was a liqueur) called Pamp. One of my housemates and I had eyed it off a few times and then we eventually took the dive. We couldn’t find information on it, or not much. We did find a business in another country that seemed to be the one that made it at one point, but by the stage we got the bottle it appeared to have stopped. The bottle itself was dusty, and there were concerns about how it’d be.

From what I remember, the label had half of a citrus fruit on the front, but I’m not completely certain. I also remember it being fine to drink, and tasting nice enough.

I remember my ex getting alcohol poisoning at that party, and heading to Concord Hospital with her and sleeping by her bed. She came out fine, but not feeling well. She threw up on the carpet before the ambulance came, and due to how the place had been treated before my housemates and I moved in, it was actually difficult to tell where the stain was.

My housemates were only there for around seven, eight months. We spent time trying to get the real estate to fix a light fixture that was leaking water, as well as get them to try and pay the power bill (the way the property was subdivided meant they were obligated to cover it). They sent us a notice to vacate. I ended up taking them to tribunal to get the money back, which I was eventually successful in getting done.

It was a pressurised time, living in that house. Had I known better and been more willing to break free from those housemates, I probably would’ve been in a better headspace earlier on. I ended up moving with them again, which was not a good idea and led to more issues, though that ended up leading to my living next to Ewe and Anna in 2013, and that was good. But a lot of damage was done before then.

I remember walking along Homebush Road and feeling all sorts of things. A lot of turmoil, but there were a lot of good walks, too. A lot of walks under pleasant skies, and a lot of boring times. It was a heavy time, but it was a light time too, and the walk was boring and enjoyable, and those days are now past me. Homebush Road is just another road, but back then it held meaning. Still does, really.

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Silhouette Against Clouds

Another shot of the earlier-shared photo of the tree and the sky, but this one capturing a little more colour of the sunset. Upon looking on it a bit more, this is a little more intense than I originally thought, but it carries a peace, perhaps. There’s a starkness to it, but it doesn’t feel severe, if that makes sense.

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-forty-eighth Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Serene“.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

This one is curated by Egídio. The next one is curated by Tina.

I recommend joining the community and participating in the challenges. They’re pretty straightforward, allow room for interpretation, and provide a good way to think about photography in general. If not, however, then at the very least you should check out what others submit to the challenges.

I hope you enjoy.

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Under a Cumulus Sky

Just a peaceful shot taken in my backyard recently.

This is my submission into Leanne Cole‘s “Monochrome Madness” for this week. The next one is hosted by Brian of Bushboys World and he has chosen “Streetlights – by day and at night” as his theme.

This photo was taken in spring, though it doesn’t feel much like a spring photo.

This challenge is open to all, and I recommend joining in. If want to, check out more information about it here, and include the tag “monochrome-madness” when you share your photo. If you’d prefer not to join in, then at the least check out Leanne’s photography, and what other people submit.

I hope you enjoy.

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Soft Structure

The focus being on the bollards was a total accident. When I took this photo, I thought it was on the structure (here’s a sharper photo). I was wrong.

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-forty-seventh Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Break the Rules!“.

Very much a happy accident, this one and I feel it fits the challenge well enough.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

This one is curated by Ritva. The next one is curated by Egídio.

I recommend joining the community and participating in the challenges. They’re pretty straightforward, allow room for interpretation, and provide a good way to think about photography in general. If not, however, then at the very least you should check out what others submit to the challenges.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1499: Not a Pleasant Week

The week that was was not a pleasant week. Good things coming, which is great. Bit of misery too. It’s cold today and I’m cold and I’m not feeling great, but I’m alive and that’s a good start. That’s a good way to be. But I’m also cold and unhappy.

So what? Who cares? There’s still stuff to do at the moment, after all. Things need to keep on moving and grooving and all of that, and they are. I’m getting things done where I can, but the week has just left me drained and down, I guess. Good news doesn’t mean good times, which is to be expected, but I still need to keep getting things done and all that. I don’t have much time to be lazy. I don’t have much time to do nothing, but nothing is on the cards and by golly, I am doing it to the best of my ability at the moment.

So I’m sitting here, waiting for food to arrive. It feels a bit pointless, but I am waiting. I am waiting for it to get here so I can shove it in my gullet, and then I’ll get on with the day. But before then I’m doing nothing. I’m taking it easy, and I’ve done so for too much of this week. I have been active to be fair; shoving things into a storage unit does take time and energy, but there’s still so much to go and perhaps not enough time to get it all done in, and maybe I should be more active. Maybe I should be more on my feet and moving right now. But I need rest and I’m unhappy and feeling pretty down at the moment, because I’m saying farewell to a home again. Not a house; a home.

I’ll probably touch on that when I do move out, but right now it is upsetting. I got dumped and that is hard. I have to still navigate that, and from it all I’m forced to move again, and I just want to sit still. I wouldn’t have stayed in this place forever, but I certainly would have liked to not be in a position where I’m leaving it due to being forced to. But that’s the way it goes, sometimes.

At the very least I know there’s a good day ahead of me, and a lot of catching up to do, and I’ll do some of it and then the rest of it later. But it will get done, as will the moving of everything into storage, and I’ll get on. I’ll survive, and this will pass, and maybe the day will end alright. Unhappy now doesn’t mean unhappy later.

At the very least things need to happen today. Not much, but a lot, and it’s going to be a day of peace and rage, and quiet pain and all of those other things. But it’ll probably end alright, and that’s something to look forward to.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:20:35

Could’ve been better; could’ve been worse.

Written at home.

 

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Early Morning Ad

Here’s an ad for Young Henrys that I saw a number of weeks ago and decided to take a photo of for some reason.

I hope you enjoy.

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Wet Clifftop

Was a long day, so here’s a photo of a clifftop that is wet.

Bit of a dreary photo, now that I think about it.

I hope you  enjoy.

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Nitsua: Sunset

One listen.

I’m really tired from moving stuff, and I’ve been meaning to do this for most of the day. Just forced myself and it’s a bit of a mess, but a lot came forward, which I’m happy about.

Nitsua’s “Sunset” is from dayscape.

I hope you enjoy.

Warm waves. Soft, nostalgic, bringing everything to an end. The steady beat comes in, kicks hard and soft at the same time, and this seems set to relax.

Perhaps sentimentality carries upon the tune, but I’m not sure. It’s certainly of a specific type and form, and it doesn’t care to offer anything different. It also carries nice and easy, and it’s steady in its delivery. It feels purposefully designed in perhaps the best way, and without lingering it lingers on each of its moments.

When the beat pulls away there’s a bit of a transformation, but it’s what carries on naturally from what was before. The sounds keep drawing out in their muffled way, and this seems like a dramatic moment, but it’s so low and unwilling to become dramatic, and that’s nice.

This moment doesn’t last long and the tune returns to where it was before. The sounds continue their little drift and flicker; they waft and soon keys come in and provide a little more definition. They play gentle; they seem to sway and move about the space, looking to have some joy whilst building on the relaxation. They look and smile upon a scene they bear witness too, alone and among many others, and the romance starts coming through. The romance dances and sways and swings, and it takes it easy. It takes it easy to travel through the air, still almost, all the way to the song’s end.

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Moving stuff

It has been a few days, and it certainly has, but I’m going to try and focus on today.

I’ve been basking a little in the news that I have a job locked in, as well as a room. The job is for six months, and that’s good for me. It’s time and it could be extended. Likely won’t, but could be. So… happy days, but also tentative happy days.

It will be a period of scrounging hard. I’m aiming to keep expenditure to an absolute minimum. Just survive, live low, get myself into a position of safety. Make it easier for me to weather another period of potential unemployment.

So anyway, got the news of everything being locked in yesterday. Was good timing. Spent a lot of yesterday being tired, used it as an excuse to relax. The car was full of stuff that needed to go to storage, but it wasn’t happening yesterday. Took care of other things instead. Today comes around, laze about a bit, then got to it.

It took longer than I expected, and it was tough as I’m watching my life go into storage once more. The plus side is I’m not losing my history this time. I get to continue on with my stuff, though I do need to get rid of a bit, and that’s a relief. It’s all too close to the edge and this is definitely a position I don’t want to be in again.

But after I put the last of the load into the storage unit, I sat on the trolley I’d used and zoned out a bit. I want to cry. I want to cry badly, and let loose, but I don’t feel the need to do so, and I’m tired. I was sitting there, being tired, thinking about nothing, zoning out. Staring off into my phone and looking at nothing, and I rested for a number of minutes before I went back to the car to go somewhere for breakfast.

I went to the Bakehouse Quarter as it was close to where I was. As I was driving over I remembered Ewe’s ‘Holy Smokes’ shirt. Messaged him about it after I parked. Not sure why I remembered.

When I was a teenager there were a few times I cycled through the Bakehouse Quarter. I wouldn’t be able to say why beyond it being where I ended up on those particular cycles, when I’d go explore places that were near home. It was a quiet place back then, or at least it seemed to be. It probably wasn’t. These days it’s a different thing. It has been gentrified and filled with eateries and grocery shops, among other things. It’s fine and it’s good to have something so centralised, I think, but I feel much like an outsider, thinking about it. But so is most everyone visiting an area that’s changed from their history.

But it was nice to sit at a café and read. It was nice to just sit there and eat and enjoy a coffee, and then get on with it.

I went home, and it had been about three hours since I left. I didn’t take much to storage, and I was a bit surprised it took as long as it did, but that’s the way it goes sometimes. It was time that was needed, and it was probably less than what most people take.

I got back to packing things and doing washing and trying to get as much out of the house as possible, because there still is a fair bit to go. This isn’t over and it’s going to take a lot of time, but it’s happening.

When I started this, I thought something more deep would come forward. Apparently that’s not so much the case, but sometimes the dullness is fine anyway.

 

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Nitsua: Seaside

One listen.

Trying to bounce back and it’s tough, but I was able to throw myself into this, and that’s good, I think. I have a few tracks I want to do, so there will likely be a glut today, but this is the start and I got something out of the song that is pretty obvious if you know this type of music, but still meaningful.

Nitsua’s “Seaside” is from dayscape.

I hope you enjoy.

Percussive count before the song kicks in with its smooth melancholy. Beat remains steady, of course, and these sounds flow along whilst another lowers down steps, looking across the waterscape. The beat shifts and the bass pulls away, but everything remains steady. The flow continues, and in this spaced moment, a voice speaks.

It is quiet, soft, gentle, perhaps. There’s something in it, maybe about memory. Maybe about longing. Who knows. The bass returns and the melancholy continues. Maybe it doesn’t need to be melancholy, however. Maybe it’s just something pleasant, relaxing. Something at ease and knowing, and it’s all sorts of pretty and gentle.

The bass pulls away and keys are there, twinkling across the space. Twinkling across the scene, shimmering as brief moments filled with experience. Filled with memory, and it’s all easy. It’s all relaxed, and nice, and peaceful, and it all stops and the song ends.

 

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