Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1402: Pre-work Ramble

I don’t have long before I start work, but I told myself that I’ll write this morning and so that is what I’m doing, because that is what I want to do.

Gotta do my setting up for the day and getting ready and all those things. Gotta get moving and start getting through everything. Gotta prepare for the onslaught of stuff I like doing, or something.

It’s a fine day and I can drift off into my own little world for a short period of time. That’s fine, but perhaps I want to drift off for a long time. Perhaps I want to drift off for a time that goes beyond all that it goes beyond… or something. Perhaps I want to live in my imagination and the worlds that it brings toward me, or rather the worlds that I allow myself to go to through it… I think?

What am I saying? What am I writing? I’m just sitting here, spewing words that don’t have enough context or meaning and I’m spreading myself thick in a thin manner, and it’s all just a mess. Could be worse, of course, but it could be better and I need to stop saying that.

What I need to do is start looking elsewhere and see what lies beyond. I need to continue through the thicket of laziness and move toward the thicket of effort, and keep on going. I’ve let myself get too lazy for too long, and it’s draining me and all that other stuff. At the same time, however, I’m really tired and I need more fuel in the tank, and it’s not happening and so I need to rest for a good long time. Rest is nice and necessary and all that, and it’s something I keep depriving myself of, and I really, REALLY need to stop doing so, because I spend a lot of time not doing anything but not resting.

I’ve written about this before and I guess it’s safe to assume that I’ll keep writing about it in the future, and I really don’t want to, but it’s what will keep happening. That’s life, I suppose. People do tend to repeat themselves and I can’t pretend that I don’t, but I still don’t like it. I’d rather explore other things.

I’d rather be a bit shallow and wide at the moment, and then start diving again, but I’m not sure if I will or even if I can. However, that’s the way it is, I guess. Perhaps what I should really be doing is embracing the whole thing and become even more singular. Perhaps the giving up on being dynamic is where the true path to being better lies, and so that’s the path that I should follow.

Don’t want to, however. Feels a little too easy to me, so I’d rather just not. I’d rather keep on going and trying and failing, then trying some more. It’s what I prefer doing, to be honest.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:21:83

I think some of this is decent. Kind of had to force myself to “flow” in a sense and that comes through, but then the readability improves after that.

Written at work.

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Regurgitator: INVADER

This is another one that took too long. I sort of took my time with it, sort of didn’t. It just mostly happened, if that makes sense.

The editing process was easy, though I got to a point where I realsied it wasn’t that good of a bit of writing, but it was better to publish it and move on. Realistically it would’ve been better to not publish at all, but I wanted it out of the way. I think what I said is fine, but I also think it could’ve been said much better.

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Regurgitator no longer exist as part of the zeitgeist and they haven’t for a while. But when their now was now and not then, they seemed concerned that they were part of it rather than being part of it. Since that time they’ve had a good deal of breathing space. Their career has been lengthy and seen various forms of success, but once you get a few decades along your musical path, what do you do? How do you keep going without burning out? Perhaps for Regurgitator it doesn’t matter so long as what they feel they’re doing is good enough.

So INVADER starts with “Cocaine Runaway”, seemingly an ode to a prior era used to form a foundation for the new. It’s synthy; it’s pushing forward. It has sax.  Then the album gets more punky with “Pest”, then pop with “This is not a Pop Song”, then more punk, then hip-hop, then some “rock”, then something more new wave-ish… and it continues on touching on various sounds and styles. There’s a through-line in terms of sound and “style” here, where a good number of songs sound a bit dirtier than usual and others are really crisp and clean, yet everything sounds familiar enough to each other. Essentially the album holds this variability but it remains cohesive. It sounds like Regurgitator in the way that Regurgitator sound like Regurgitator.

As such, the songs also feel pretty fun, though often the lyrics carry a lot of weight and seem more direct than on past releases. However, it’s clear that Regurgitator don’t want to necessarily smack you in the face; they rather you listen and join the party. There’s serious subject matter throughout the album, and there’s optimism too.

That said, “The Bastard Poem No One Wanted” (orated by poem’s writer, Tyson Yunkaporta) goes in a different direction to the rest of the album. It’s an intense bit of work, fantastically delivered and with the right kind of backing instrumentation too. It’s a bit of a sudden shift, but it sits in the right spot to be at its most effective.

INVADER’s other guests also put in solid work. Peaches appearing to do Peaches things works nicely in keeping “…Pop Song” flowing; JK47’s feature on “Dirty Old Men” gives a needed breadth and further meaning to a piece that would risk monotony without him. It’d be easy to have guests for the sake of having guests, but both their and Tyson’s appearances feel warranted. Their appearances hold focus, and are long enough to get something across without either feeling rushed or meandering.

When I first listened to INVADER, it felt like just another Regurgitator album. From the second listen onward, the songs revealed more of themselves, and the album’s overall strengths started coming forward. Closer “Tsunami” has a sadness balanced by the melody, but that likely won’t come through if only heard once. The lo-fi “Pee Pee Man” starts making more sense within the context of being between “Dirty Old Men” and “Wrong People” over repeat listens. Sure, the songs work well enough on their own, but they work as well in the context of the whole album.

Regurgitator haven’t necessarily released a bad album, but some have been weaker than others. There was a good stretch where, their music seemed more about having fun. That’s fine, but it felt like their desire to discuss their concerns took a backseat. Furthermore, the energy and enthusiasm was still there, but it didn’t feel utilised to the fullest extent. On INVADER they’re still having fun, but Regurgitator are striking out with a fuller passion. Not all the songs express the group’s concerns, but they are being much more incisive without sacrificing enjoyment.

INVADER is available here.

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Light Under Clouds

This is a photo I took a good few weeks ago now. It’s just a moody photo. Sort of ominous, and you’ve one light on and it sets this tone to the whole thing. Is the person forced to work despite the threat of heavy rainfall? Is it someone just staying back, oblivious to the outside? Did they forget to switch a light off?

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-fifteenth Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Common Object“.

I feel this fits the theme as both windows and lights are often seen as common objects.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

Ritva is curating this one. The next one is curated by Egídio.

I recommend participating in the challenges as they provide a fun way to interpret theme. If not participating, then at least you should still check out what others of the Lens-Artists community are submitting.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1401: Another Day Tired

Another day wasted. Another day tired. Another day where I wrote a thing and then didn’t do the thing so it meant I scrapped the thing, but it was worth scrapping. It was worth throwing away.

Where are those words going to go now? I don’t know, but I also don’t remember them. Maybe that is unfair. I don’t know.

I know that I sit here and I’m trying to get something across. I don’t want another day to slip into the tedium of nothingness. I don’t want to lose another day to a lack of productivity. I want to keep on going and keep writing, and I hope I get enough done. I need to finish some reviews but that isn’t happening today, but I am writing now, at least.

I’m trying to think of what the future holds right now, or at least trying to think of an idea of what the future could hold. I’m trying to think of things, but my mind is clouded by the fatigue I’ve wrought, and I don’t know how much more energy I have before I pass out.

Anyway, I’m thinking about all the words I’ve written, and I wonder how many of them were worth reading. I’ll probably say this again soon enough, but I’ve weaved a series of thoughts and ramblings about life, and I prefer to weave life over highlights, but I still have to wonder as to how much of it is worth it, and how much of it is monotonous drivel. Still, I’ve done it and it’s now part of my history, and that’s fine. That’s okay.

But now I sit here and I have to think about some things. I have to think about what I have and have not created, and the time I’ve spent sitting here writing about things when it could’ve been time better spent elsewhere. I have to think about what is floating away and what is leaving, and if what I invite in is worth the trade.

I want to keep walking toward the sunset, and through the night, and toward whatever else is out there, and it’s happening, but it brings about a lot of reflection, I guess. It could be worse, of course. This isn’t a bad place to be. I’ve been lucky enough to be able to float along and make connections, and see people come and go, but there’s also some hurt here too, and maybe that’s part of what it all needs to keep floating on.

Eventually it will be beyond the horizon behind me and I’ll be walking through the dawn, and the words that carry weight may be what I take, but I hope I can detach them from this.

I hope I can take them to whatever comes next, when that comes, but for now I’ll just keep walking. I’ll keep walking and reflecting, and eventually I’ll get there. I’ll get to where I want to be, and that will be that.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:16:17

Not a bad speed.

A bit more reflective or openly introspective than usual, and I guess that’s gonna happen here and there, but this one feels a bit more raw in a sense.

Written at home.

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Smaller Waterfall

Another waterfall seen on the same walk as the last one I shared.
Actually, maybe this one wasn’t smaller. I can’t remember. Anyway.

I think the lighting on this one is alright. Probably could be a bit better balanced, but overall I think the lighting helps with the framing and everything came out alright here. Sort of moody; sort of not.

I hope you enjoy.

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Space for the Sunrise

A recent photo. Less than a week old.

I want to write about this now, but I’m saving it for another day as it was a fairly standard, yet adventurous… adventure?

Anyway, this photo was taken on 4 1/2 hours of sleep and about an hour of driving, and I missed what I wanted to capture, missing out was very much worth the loss.

I hope you enjoy.

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Pond Walker

As far as I’m concerned, a very lucky photo. Right place at the right time.

This is my submission into Leanne Cole‘s Monochrome Madness. The theme for this one (“Birds”) was provided by Elke of Eklastic.

Participating is pretty straightforward and something I recommend. If you do, then include the tag “monochrome-madness” in your post. If not participating, then at the least check out Leanne’s photography as well as what other people submit.

I hope you enjoy.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1400: Give Myself Five Minutes

So if I give myself five minutes to write I can give myself twenty minutes to walk and then I can go and start the day in a way that expresses some sort of spectacular dazzling in a wonderful display of errors, and then I can ask myself where I am and where I am going, and all the other fun questions that follows ones legs and bites at the ankles, or rather nips at the ankles… I don’t know which one is correct, but I know one of those might be.

In the grand scheme of things there are things and there is stuff, and realistically I should just go for the walk instead of writing and then going, but I wanted to do this beforehand and doing this beforehand is what I am currently doing, and I don’t know why. There are other, far more important things to deal with and I’m dealing with them by doing things, but one tries, or something. Maybe I’m not trying and just doing the whole spinning on the spot thing still, but I’m telling myself I’m not.

To be fair, it’s a pretty large spot.

So the day is young and the weather is worrying, but today is a little cooler than what tomorrow will be and that’s nice. I have to tell myself that that’s nice and that’s okay, because if I don’t then I’ll probably despair more than I already am, but maybe things will be okay. Maybe things will wash away and it will be all okay and then I can rest and you get the idea.

I’m gonna stride and I’ll keep on pushing forward, and eventually I’ll get some sleep and I’ll sleep better than I had on prior nights, and that’ll be nice. That’ll be earned… well, not really, but it will feel like it was earned and feeling like is good enough sometimes. Sometimes the best you can get is the feeling than the actuality and that’s all good. You just can’t rely on it. You don’t want it to be a crutch, and so you keep on going and you keep on pushing through all the crap to try and get ahead of where you currently are, or at lest get some sort of reprieve that gives you some time to rest.

I don’t know where I’m going with this, so I think I’ll keep it short and get into the next bit, whatever that next bit may be.

So it’s a nice day and I’m at work, and things feel alright. Could be better; could be worse, but things feel alright. Things feel like they’re moving at a good pace, and I’m enjoying myself. I’m tired and I’m in pain, but I’m doing okay and things don’t seem as bleak on a personal level. In the grand scheme of things there’s a lot of work that needs to be done, but that’s for another time and day, and that’s a collective effort.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:38:13

Bit of a nothing writing. More relaxed thoughts, or something. I don’t know.

Written at work.

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Road Following Transmission

I’ll have to take a better photo of this area at some point.

I was trying to show the distance this bit of the run… runs, and I think I did okay, but I can see where I could’ve done better.

I hope you enjoy.

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toe: NOW I SEE THE LIGHT

I took my time with this one.

I wrote most of the original form of this somewhere around the end of July, then made tweaks here and there. I rewrote some parts, made more edits, then got to a point tonight where I decided to finish it off, and it was easy enough.

Not exactly a good bit of writing, but I think it works well enough. I think choosing to take my time with this one paid off, but I’m not sure I want to do so again, because I thought I’d be done sooner.

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Alright, it’s toe’s NOW I SEE THE LIGHT. I’ll cut to the chase: it’s good.

So toe aren’t the loudest band, and that’s fine. They rely a lot on clarity to convey their sound, and considering their music often feels like it holds balance between simple and complex, having that clarity is a boon. It allows their liveliness to come through when needed, as well as gentle moments to speak more effectively. In that regard, the songs here seem “quieter”, or perhaps more “reflective”; that liveliness is still there, but it’s a bit more restrained than usual.

There seems to be less interest in knotty guitar work – though that is there – and less interest in establishing a sense of progression and flow-through – though that also is there – and instead the songs sort of simmer on a moment, though not always. In lacking hands this can make for boring music, but toe deftly handle what they’ve put forward. Their focus seems to have always been reflective of where they are in life, and in that regard NOW I SEE THE LIGHT is no different to previous releases. It might be less “dancey” than some of what they’ve previously released, but it’s an album no less considered.

Still, whilst it’s a little diminished, the sense of dance and rhythm remains strong. The percussion keeps that nice flow and groove going, and they also have striking sense of precision, even in quieter moments. Meanwhile, the guitars and bass (and other sounds here and there) sound crisp and clear, whilst efficiently building on rhythm.

Vocally, the… vocals are a bit more quiet than usual, or at least they feel that way, but they carry a tune well enough. Do they sound different from what toe have made use of before? No; at least, not overtly, and that’s fine. However, their use here treats them more as a sound to blend with the other instruments than usual. The voice is still there and it’s still carrying words, but it’s a bit less at the forefront.

Throughout NOW I SEE THE LIGHT a sense of the reflective and melancholic comes through, but it’s not all that; there are occasional moments of joy too, and toe don’t seem to want to lean one way or the other. There’s an obviousness to the songs, but it’s not overt and it’s clearly one aspect rather than a defining trait. There remains plenty of room to let things sink in and explore. There’s intention here, and restraint, and perhaps it’s why the album feels like it goes by quickly.

On one hand I don’t want to claim this album is background music. On the other, I don’t want to say it’s present and right there. NOW I SEE THE LIGHT is appreciable as both, and how you approach it does change the listening experience in this instance. I do think, however, that toe intentionally straddle a line here. The energetic thrust found on previous releases isn’t as pronounced here, but there still is a sense of energy. Whilst some moments of the album feel more upbeat and, at times, drifting, the album still feels emotionally weighted without being overt. The album’s a more muted affair, even when it implies a loudness. It feels and sounds simpler than usual, but that works in the album’s favour, and it’s quite likely deceptively so.

The songs carry fine, there’s clarity, there’s space and the vocals are on the quieter side of things, and a little more fragile-sounding than usual. It works, and so does the album as a whole, really. Is it toe at their best? I’d like to argue that it is but I don’t know if I could say for certain, and anyway, who cares? It’s good music.

NOW I SEE THE LIGHT is available here.

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