I sit here and I spend my time waiting. I am waiting for something to happen, but I know not as to what that something might be. I do know, however that for once it does not concern writing and so I’m feeling a little more free to ramble on about things that don’t matter. Of course I generally feel pretty free to do that, but right now it’s just a little more free than usual. perhaps you could argue that I am galvanised at the moment, but that is something that I don’t want to get into.
I also don’t want to get into discussing the wonderful driver who thought it would be a good idea to overtake around a corner, crossing a double line to do it and doing it shortly before six in the morning, and due to doing it a fair bit over the speed limit, almost taking me and my partner out. Beyond what I’ve just said, it feels like a waste of energy at the moment.
I could discuss what it is that I am waiting for, but what I am waiting for is quite easy to summarise. You see, what I am waiting for is the point in time where I start getting ready to do things as there are things of which I am to do this afternoon and they will start with my getting ready to head outside. I will head into the outside world and once I am there I will go on a journey that involves driving and moving from one location to another location. There will be some places where I stop along the way. There may be places where I do not stop. There also could be places where I both do and do not stop, but what I do know is that there will be quite a few locations passed and there will be the act of motion in which I will engage in as an active participant, for participating in the act of moving through space and time is something of which I shall be a participant in and of the active variety.
Now that I have that out of the way, perhaps I should look at discussing other things. I should look at what the time is so I can be better equipped to start getting ready, for the process of getting ready requires a few steps and I need to make sure that I am ready to take part in those steps. I need to know that I can actively move forward toward the act of getting ready and I need to make sure that the act of getting ready is one in which I will be able to pass through with little difficulty.
Technically many things could happen between now and the point in which I will be ready, but I’m sure that with enough time and work I could mitigate most of those things and make sure that the things I can’t prevent have a smaller chance of happening, or at least less clutter around them so I can better avoid them when they come along.
Maybe there is a chance where I am overthinking this, but thinking is good as it helps the brain function… I think… but there are other things that I need to consider with this statement of statements, but perhaps those other things will not be considered and instead I will just keep on going on with whatever it is that I am going on about as I am currently spending time waiting and soon I will wait no more and instead jump into action so that I can get to the end of what it is that I need to get to the end of, which just so happens to be a series of events in which I will participate, followed by taking it easy, or something.
Maybe there will be no taking it easy and instead I will just keep on going. That too is a possibility of which is one that I need to consider, for there are plenty out there and now I am just rambling and perhaps I need to try and find a way to stop. However, the issue here is that I am on a flow that just allows all of this to keep on pouring out and so I need to let it happen so that I can move onto other things.
What if it doesn’t stop?
What if I am stuck like this and there is no way out? What if somehow, despite my constant rambling, this has been bottled up for my entire existence and only now it is coming forward? What if I have to let this happen? I don’t want that to be the case. I want to be able to relax nd take it easy before the inevitable getting up and getting ready. I don’t want to have to let a bunch of words flow on endlessly for the rest of my days.
I don’t know what to do and therefore maybe it no longer is time to wait. Maybe now is the time for me to start working toward closing this up by force and then getting up and doing the things. Maybe I need to take action and then go from there.
There is every chance that this might not work, but then again it might just and then I will be fine and there will be nothing left for me to worry about for at lest five minutes or so. However, there is every chance that perhaps I am overthinking this too and therefore I need to stop worrying about what it is that I am worrying about, then get this wrapped ups o I can go onto other things, but then again there is no telling at this stage so perhaps I will just fight to stop the flow and then get back to the periodic act of waiting.
The time it took to write one thousand words: 11:21:94
This one was quick and also something that, whilst messy, is something I’m happy with.
It was really easy to write and as such it felt really smooth to write.
Written at home.