Cold it is and all that, but that is not what I am going to try and talk about.
I’m also not going to try and talk about trying to talk about something. For now that well needs to refill for a little while. It needs a rest.
I don’t know what I will talk about, but I am sure that something will come forward and then once that something comes forward I will be able to move along with some sort of tenacity that will reveal just how passionate and driven and galvanised I am when it comes time to be those things and get on with the proceeding of the words in an order that makes some sort of “sense”, but perhaps (now that I think about it) I will fall into the same trappings as always.
If this does indeed happen, then you can be certain that I will shake my fist and stomp my feet and curse my foolishness in being foiled once more. Then I will look for a way out. If there is none, then I will dig my way out. No matter what, I will get out of the thing and then I will be able to celebrate and so on and so forth.
However, failing that, then I will rest for a while and then get out a little later. Maybe I’ll walk back on the path I had already taken and see how that changes perspective and view and all those other things that it may or may not change. Who knows?
Well, I would know at the time, but until then I do not know and so I will keep on working toward the eventual even, though hopefully I will not fall for a trap that I set for myself. Hopefully by that point I will know better to avoid the trap and therefore the eventual result will be one of celebration as finally there will be a new horizon that can be seen and that new horizon holds within itself some pretty sights and wonderful smells and the relief that, yes, it is possible to seek out the new and get there, even if that new has to be carved by one’s own hands and all of that other stuff that comes with seeking the new and actually finding it, but of course one cannot dwell on those things for too long as there are many steps yet to come and in those steps there are many stories yet to be told, so it is up to you to get down there and get into the exploring of it all so that the journey can continue to grow and…
So anyway, I think that what I’m saying is that today there will be no discussion of trying to find things to say, which is something that I will wholeheartedly do my best to stick to a that is the best way forward until it no longer is the best.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:08:19
Maybe some of my better writing in recent times.
Written at home.