Hitoshi Sakimoto: The Tomb of Raithwall

One listen.

I wanted to try and pull out the “stuffiness” of the song, or rather that’s what was coming to me, but I didn’t feel right putting that forward, so I didn’t, or rather tried not to overtly state it. Not sure if I was successful.

Hitoshi Sakimoto’s (崎元 仁) “The Tomb of Raithwall” (“レイスウォール王墓”) is from the soundtrack for Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy XII Original Soundtrack.

I hope you enjoy.

Percussion plays a light and steady rhythm in a darkened, thickened space. It plays quiet as other sound seems to shine through the dim here and there, and the percussion builds back up, but it remains low, and it almost seems reverent.

A few quick rumbles and the percussion pulls back a little, but other bits and pieces come in, and it remains steady. It also seems sharpened here, and not quite tense. That reverence remains, but there’s something unnerving. Something uncomfortable in it all as it continues on and builds, but all it builds to is a return to the start.

The percussive sounds play out their dimmed melody, and they keep themselves low still, but they also build and come forward. They remain low and they remain with a sense of calmness, but they carry an intensity. They carry something that lurks within, and they move with an ease.

The sounds are familiar with their space, and they know the structure and passages. They know where everything lies and they know how to navigate it, and they know when to build and hold back, and they cast themselves outward whilst remaining in their low state. They quietly quietly as the sounds fade and the song ends.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1430: Need Sleep

So right now I could spend some time working on a review I should’ve had done a good few months ago at the absolute latest. I could work on that, but I’m not going to because I don’t feel like it, and no one can tell me otherwise.

Actually I do feel like it but if I start getting stuck into it right now, I won’t get enough done and breaking the flow to work on other things isn’t the best thing that I can currently do, so instead I’m doing some word churning.

Word churning; that thing that people love that I do, where I churn out a bunch of words in a particular order in order to get an order of ordering across. That kind of thing, you know?

But I sit here and it’s loud and quiet, and the weather is not nice but I don’t mind, I’m inside. I have things to do. I get to pretend that right now, I am important. Won’t be for much longer, but am right now, in my own little world, flitting about and looking at the things and wondering why I put a calendar up at an angle. Need to try to not notice that. It’ll distract me from this most unimportant mission of which I am going through at the moment.

Yes, I need sleep. I need sleep desperately. I am running on a low amount, but I can still get through the day. I can still achieve something out of all of this. At least, I think I can. Maybe I cannot. Don’t know yet. Won’t know until later, when the day actually starts. For now I can pretend, however, and pretending is what I will do.

I will pretend that I am not going to get dangerously close to falling asleep today. I am going to pretend that all is fine and fineness is all there is, and I will get to where I need to get, and I will get there with some sort of non-reckless abandon. Nothing will fall and all will be fine, and that’s a good thing as it means I don’t have as much to worry about… or that is what I’ll tell myself, at least.

Maybe won’t tell myself that. Maybe instead I’ll just pretend that it’s all chaos and in all the chaos I can get to the truth behind it all, and the matter of the subject will reveal itself, but there will be so much chaos and intensity that I lose it the moment I get the tiniest glimpse, and then I’ll spend the rest of my life chasing something that was never there in the first place, for it was always out of reach and it could only have been there if I had been more ready, or reactive. But then that might break the nature of things and so it’s better off this way.

I think I might need to go to bed early tonight.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:25:43

I feel I should read over this, but I won’t. Already know it’s a mess. Happy to forget about it.

Written at work.

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Winter’s Exposed Branches

I took this photo on the way to work back in winter, and I should probably get a photo of the tree now, see if its leaves have come back. Haven’t really paid attention.

Anyway, a bit of a stark photo, with a bit of focused cluttering, I think.

This is my submission into the three hundred-and-twenty-eighth Lens-Artists Photo Challenge. The theme for this one is “Winter“.

The host of the Lens-Artists challenges cycles weekly between the following people:

Tina

Patti

Ann-Christine aka Leya

John Steiner

Sofia Alves

Anne Sandler

Egídio

Ritva

John is curating this one. The next one is curated by everyone.

I recommend joining the community and participating in the challenges. They’re pretty straightforward, allow room for interpretation, and provide a good way to think about photography in general. If not, however, then at the very least you should check out what others submit to the challenges.

I hope you enjoy.

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Hitoshi Sakimoto: Abandoning Power

One listen, and to be honest I thought I’d have more to say.
It’s a short piece but a rich one, but not much came forward. Happens.

Hitoshi Sakimoto’s (崎元 仁) “Abandoning Power” (“捨て去りし力”) is from the soundtrack for Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy XII Original Soundtrack.

I hope you enjoy.

Gentle keys rolling into a fade as vocals follow along. Gentle, and perhaps sad and relieving. Soon strings come in and pulse whilst woodwind flutters over it all, gently, lightly and yet heavily.

The sounds all turn to something a bit more up and relieving, and brass comes in with a brief punctuation, as does more woodwind, and it’s all angular for a moment before everything suddenly returns to the start.

The moment repeats and reinforces, and there’s affirmation and relief, and confidence in the decision. Suddenly the sounds roll and spread out in a positive way, in reassurance, and they keep themselves brief before everything fades out and the song ends.

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One Thousand Word Challenge 209: A Conversation at a Beach

For what seemed a while, the two sat there without speaking a word. The sound of the waves lapping at the wide stretch of beach carried the silence, as did a light breeze as first light broke the darkness, and sunrise led into a pallid, gray and cold morning.

The fire’s flames flickered and gradually diminished, revealing more of the glowing wood underneath, and the two remained in silence. The robed figure, still, looking at them with all sorts of seriousness. They themselves, looking into the flames and finishing off their meal, not wanting the company so much, but having invited it, not feeling as though they could say much of anything.

Eventually the silence broke as the robed figure spoke:

“You know, this is perhaps a strange place to rest for a traveler.”

“…How so?”

“Well, you’re on an island that’s along a dangerous route, or so a lot of people believe. It’s one you take if you want to avoid attention.”

“I wanted to see what is out here. Have some time to spare.”

“Would you not prefer to reach your destination sooner?”

“Not really, no.”

“Well, that is of course your choice, but the tide comes in here quite rapidly. Easy to get stranded in the wrong location, such as this alcove.”

“Is that why you’ve come out here? To warn me?”

“To warn you? You could say that.”

“For what other reason would you come out to a spot like this on a dangerous route?”

“Perhaps I was looking for rest. Maybe it was company. Just to talk to another traveler. Why wouldn’t you want to reach your destination sooner? What attention are you looking to avoid?”

“I’m not. I’m just making a delivery, and the recipient won’t be available until a certain date, so I’m also going along sightseeing.”

“What sights are there to see? It’s all water out there.”

“Well, I also log many things, take sketches, try to gather information.”

They reached over to their pack and pulled out a salmon leather-bound journal. Unwinding the lock, they carefully showed the robed figure some of the sketches and notes, being sure to only allow glimpses rather than full information.

“This path is dangerous, yes, but this job has allowed me time to go through here, and see what is along here. Hopefully find things not studied well enough, flow patterns, structures. Maybe some of the various animals around, hopefully get a good start for a good study.”

“So you’re a courier and a researcher?”

“Mostly a hobby researcher. Not looking to sell the information I come across, but maybe improve things. Make some things safer. You know.”

“Perhaps there’s a good argument to let this region and let this route remain as it is. Let the flow of nature decide, rather than start rendering it hospitable to all. There’s a lot lost when a place becomes crowded. It transforms into an idea of what it once was, and not as it should be… not that this place is untouched, of course. But it feels untouched, and maybe it’s better we try to stop it from fragmenting.

Why not delivery by boat or cart, though? Seems like it would be faster. Safer. Better at ensuring a quick delivery, and keeping it ready upon arrival.”

“This is what they wanted, and plenty of parcels are delivered on foot still. And yes, it is good to preserve what we can, and the act of study and understanding is key to that. But if we can make things safer and retain the surrounding area, then maybe that’d be best for all.”

“Well, you best be careful. You don’t know what’s going to happen along this chain. The nearest town, if you don’t turn back, is still a few days away. Some people live along here, but they’re not necessarily amenable to travelers. Food is not necessarily plentiful, and you’ve come at the wrong time if you want a good bit of fish along the way. Sometimes the waters are dark and quiet; sometimes they are abundant and loud.”

“Thank you. I’ll keep that in mind.”

“You know, perhaps you’d like some company along the journey.”

“No, thank you. I prefer to travel alone.”

“Where are you heading?”

“A good way far from here. Toward the city.”

“That’s a good while away. About a month’s journey with little rest. I happen to be heading some of that way myself.”

“I’m fine, thank you.”

“If that’s what you so wish. But you best be careful. And perhaps we will run into each other along the way.”

“Perhaps we will. Well, I should probably make the most of the time, before the tide comes in and stops my leaving. Thank you for the information.”

And with that, they packed the last of their things, left the last of the embers to go out, nodded at the robed figure and left.

As they walked across the beach and the waves tried to reach for their feet, they felt as though the robed figure was watching them, trying to get a good sense of who they were. It was unnerving; the conversation was simple, straightforward, and they didn’t give much of anything; nothing important to the delivery, anyway.

It was as though the figure was looking through the conversation, seeing past the words and trying to work out a truth, though little, if anything of what they said could be seen as untrue.

They felt it best to keep their pace brisk, try and save a day on their journey, and so once they were off the beach they moved quickly. It was easier in the cold of the morning, and that cold would persist for a good part of the day. The nearest town was a few days away, but so was the last one they visited. If they got there sooner, then they’d have time to work out some different routes. They couldn’t help but feel they were now being followed.

The time it took to write one thousand words: 29:17:22

Slow, but that’s fine for this one, I think.

I’d been meaning to continue this for a while now, but things get away some times. I don’t think what I’ve written here is that good, but I do think it is better than a good chunk of other things I’ve written, especially recently.

I’m trying to further story and narrative, and work out the whole worldbuilding thing I’m trying to do. It’s taking time and I’m getting there, and if I keep chipping away, maybe everything will fall into place.

The other bits I’ve written:

An Interaction
A Heavy Storm
A Fishing Day Commences, A Fishing Day Ends
A Passion for Boats, Leaving Home
A Rest at a Beach

Written at home.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1429: The Coldest of Shoulders

So there was this person who existed. They existed in a way that allowed them to be noted as existing, but often they would go through life not recognised or having attention thrown their way, and that’s the way they liked it.

What they didn’t like was when someone found out that they had… the coldest of shoulders.

You see, this person was no one out of the ordinary, aside from how fascinatingly cold one of their shoulders was, and this caused no end of strife for them. Or at least did at one point, and only did at certain other points. They had to learn to navigate the world with this issue, and how to set things up that would prevent people from discovering this. Certain ways o9f dressing, moving about… you know, all those things.

When people would find out, they might react with shock or some sort of discomfort. Others might use the shoulder to chill some food or freeze something, depending on all sorts of things and situations and the like. And it was not something that this person liked. They wanted to be able to just fit in and live life, and instead they felt that they were spending most of their time just getting through it and trying to avoid people.

Of course there were some that knew and did not spend time obsessing over this odd bodily situation, but some was the amount it always stayed, and in that group of people, few had just accepted it and moved on. Most had to go through the process of fascination at first, and whilst they became steadfast friends later on down the track, the person seldom felt at ease.

Of course this made it difficult for them to hold a job they could work comfortably too, for they’d often be at risk at having the shoulder discovered. However, they felt it difficult to work jobs that didn’t require them to be in an office or somewhere else, as whilst they had an apprehension toward people, they also felt a yearning to be accepted as just a person and nothing more. They felt a desire to be around people and just fit in, despite it not happening.

Now, despite their desire to be seen as regular, they had accepted that they had this shoulder that could make things cold and freeze things, and was quite often cold to the touch. They had accepted that it was part of them, and it wasn’t so much that they hated it, but rather they hated how they’d be treated because of it. They hated that people would usually react the way they would, and that they’d be seen as a thing that represents something rather than another person trying to navigate through life and hopefully not screw up.

And so they kept on going, trying to get through each day, trying to avoid the frustrating fascination and trying to avoid people trying to use the coldest of shoulders.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 09:11:48

So apparently I had this idea nearly 3 1/2 years ago. Saved it, forgot about it until a few months ago, procrastinated, and then decided to write about it and… yeah. Not great. I think I could’ve written longer, or not done this as a word challenge. That would’ve worked better. Still, I like the idea of having this thing and not being happy about how people react to it. Very true to life, or something.

Written at home.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1428: Late Evening

So the other night I was working on something that probably wasn’t all that important, but at the time it seemed important at least, but it wasn’t. But that’s not important. What is important is that I was working on something the other night. That is to say that it was night, but the evening… the evening was late, and I wasn’t sure as to what was going on.

The sun had set and the moon was out, but it remained bright, the sky. There was no darkness. There were no stars, or rather it was too bright to see them. What was going on?

You know, I don’t know many things, and I also don’t understand much about how things work, but I know that it should be dark in the sky when the evening is here. I know it shouldn’t be bright, and so I don’t know what was going on with this one, if I am to be honest. Could’ve been anything at all, could’ve been nothing. But the evening was late. It was running behind, and this was not something that I could stand for.

So naturally I stayed sitting and kept on grumbling about it, as though it was the most important thing in the world. Of course it was not; I should’ve kept working on my thing, but at this point the grumbling was far more important to do than the working on stuff; at least, that’s how it felt to me, so grumble on is what I did, and it was a good time. But there was no sun and the moon was out, and I could see well.

Street lights seemed confused as to what to do in this particular moment in time. They switched on and off at random intervals, and in their uncertainty a seeming panic began to spread. However, the people who were outside didn’t seem to notice.

They didn’t notice when the sun set and cast its colours across the sky, and they didn’t notice when the moon rose in full brightness; in a blue spread. And I kept on grumbling and being annoyed about it, even though there was nothing that I could do.

I needed to work through the evening to get that evening touch on what I was working on, and all that this delay did was postpone the inevitable. All it did was make what I was working on tinged purely with daytime, and that’s not what I wanted, and there was no going back, for I needed to get sleep sooner or later, and perhaps so did a number of other people and creatures out there, and it just wasn’t a fun time.

However, as all comes to pass, the evening did eventually arrive, and not with a gradual approach, but a rather sudden slam against what currently was. It was as though someone hit a light switch; one moment bright and the next dark, but no one seemed to notice the change.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:39:29

The idea for this came to me a little over two months ago. Took a while to get around to writing anything on it, but here it is, written, and… yeah. Not great, but a fun bit of silliness. I’m sure I could’ve gone more apocalyptic if I so wanted, but that’s not what happened.

Written at home.

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1427: It’s all mind games

So I’m sitting here, waiting to interview an artist and it’s not happening right now. Was meant to start a little over an hour ago, but that’s okay. I can still get things done I can still get on with my life and find out what I need to find out and all of those things. You know, or I know how it is. Anyway.

It’s a fine morning and there will be much productivity, but before all of that I’ll be heading to… the pool. Why the pool? To… swim.

To work on my fitness, and to get healthier which ties into the working on my fitness, and to keep working toward pushing past old injuries so I can do more things again. It’s all work and I gotta keep working on it. It’s not bad work, of course. It’s just work.

Mostly I’m doing it so I can beat Ewe and thus, when we go on our next misadventure, I can out-fitness him, because who doesn’t want a good bit of healthy competition in order to be petty for no good reason whatsoever? But then, he might choose to intentionally under-fitness me in order to fuck with me, and so I need to think fourteen steps ahead.

Sometimes it’s only seven steps ahead, but sometimes you need to double when it comes to Ewe, because it’s all mind games and it can become a bit of a mind trap when it comes to us, because neither of us know when either of us will try to fuck with the other, and so there’s so much planning and all the grace of a rock falling in a most awkward fashion. Really, there is some grace in that too, depending on how you view it all, but… well, you get the idea.

So really, my fitness is all about competition and not looking after myself at all. And the only person I can compete with is the one person I know who procrastinates as much as I do, or perhaps not at all and secretly he’s been fucking with me this whole time and I haven’t realised.

Now that I realise this, I guess I’ll have to put in a plan that spans years and perhaps even decades in order to counter-fuck with Ewe, and then we’ll see who gets the last laugh. Then we’ll see what happens from there.

This all spans from that one joint in the bush. I shouldn’t have done that.

But anyway, it’s gonna be a good day and there will be low stakes shenanigans, and a good bit of listening to the cicadas as they make their sounds and fill the space with the harshly pleasant buzz. Their rhythms play out in moments and mark the snapshots, and are as part of the background as they are the fore, and they guide and shape the surroundings, create an enclosure of time and space, and within that will be my swim, and it’ll be nice.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 07:31:65

Don’t know why I started talking about cicadas.
Actually, I do know, but I don’t know why I started talking about them here.

Written at home.

 

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Five-Hundred Word Challenge 1426: Struggling to get anything down

Another few days of struggling to get anything down that could be conducive to writing, or at least furthering my writing. Another few days of struggling to go everywhere and nowhere, and sometimes I wonder how the time seems to disappear. How the time seems to seep away.

But you keep on trying and push through al the fatigue and struggle, and hopefully you get there in the end. Hopefully. It just takes time, until it no longer does and it’s all gone. Or you just decide to leave it all behind. Who knows which will be the end result.

But it’s a warm day, or rather it is now but wasn’t earlier, and things are moving and I’m still struggling, but you keep on pushing on and you keep on going and try to get what you need to get done done. If not, then who will? You gotta do your stuff; someone else cannot do yours for you, but they can help. Okay, they can do yours for you, and admittedly sometimes that is better. Sometimes that is better than nothing at all, and sometimes that is a clearly superior option. However, that’s not what I’m meant to be going on about right now.

There’s a lot to say, but I don’t know what I’m trying to say anymore. I just want to get this done and then go rest. Tired. Sleepy. All those things. Too much to do, not enough time to get it all done. You know, the usual stuff. It keeps on going and you keep on trying, but it just keeps on going anyway and everything is tiring, and writing is a struggle but I keep on going. Don’t want to let it get away from me. Not yet, anyway. Once I’ve a bit more done then it’s all good. But not right now.

So there’s some rambling here, and a lot of going nowhere. The whole point of this was made early on, and I’ve said enough on it for now, I think. Maybe it’s the being quite tired talking, but I’ve said enough. I don’t know what else to say and I’m just throwing things at the wall, but writing can be a real struggle and sometimes that’s the best way to treat it…. or maybe not. There are so many ways to think about writing, and maybe I’m struggling right now, but who is to say how it will be tomorrow. In a few days. Could be anything. Could be the easiest thing ever experienced and I’ll just skate along on the words as I lay them down, and it will be the most graceful thing ever experienced, ever.

Then again, maybe it won’t. Maybe I’ll have more difficulty and I’ll be sitting here, trying to force something and having nothing come up, and that will be that, and that’s it, and there’s nothing I can do about it, but I’ll keep on trying anyway, even if it remains a struggle.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 06:27:25

It took a lot of today to get to this point. Not a good bit of writing, but felt necessary, somehow.

Written at home.

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Bell Shaker

Not an instrument you see every day. Nor one you expect to see a moody photo of.

I hope you enjoy.

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