Oh no, I have waited far too long to do this and now it is dark outside and I have little time left, so I now find myself in a position where I just rush if I want to get this done, but I don’t want to rush. I want to take it easy, but I don’t get to take it easy and now I must rush if I am to get anything done at this particular hour.
However, if I rush I might also energise just a little too much and that too is something I’d much rather avoid. Don’t want to power up. Want to wind down. Can’t wind down. Have to do things. And so on and so forth and you get the idea.
But now it is evening and I am working late and I don’t want to be working late. I should try and at least slow down a little so that I don’t have too many spelling errors to correct before I share this, but perhaps I will instead ignore that thing I should try and go a little bit faster so I can get more done in less time. Screw the mistakes; I will clean them up! Even though I don’t want to as I’m feeling lazy, though not surly, which I guess is a good thing, or something.
Anyway, I think I have an idea as to what I want to write about right now and that idea is writing about what I want to write about right now. However, I need to work out how it is that I go about creating the idea and making it come to fruition. There are steps that must be taken and I am not going to take those steps at the present moment as I’m slowing down again and I don’t know as to why. It’s not like I haven’t been doing a lot of typing over the past year and more, but perhaps this is a sign that I have not been typing properly and it finally is catching up to me and now I must pay for the mistakes and transgressions that I have made. All of this has finally come back to me and it is affecting me by making me type a little slower than I hoped that I would be typing at this present moment.
Of course, this could also have to do with the fact that I am doing this in the evening rather than the morning and as such my body is forcing me into a state of being relaxed. I don’t know if that actually is the case, but I’m going to pretend that it is as therefore I can then do the pretending thing and go on about my merry way to wherever it is that I want to be taken. Of course I will be taken by the power of my moving forward and forward is where I will go and how I’ll move.
The time it took to write five-hundred words: 04:51:15
So a lot of this felt rather slow to write but the time indicates that it wasn’t quite slow writing. Interesting how the perception of time can shift.
Written at home.