Morning. It is time to ramble on about things and I’m trying to think of things but perhaps it was not the best idea to throw myself into this so willingly. Perhaps I should have thought about what I was doing before doing it, but that wasn’t going to happen and so here we are.

Fragments of what I could possibly use pass through my thoughts but I am unable to grab onto them and that’s okay as perhaps I don’t want to grab onto them. Perhaps what it is that I want to do is just mash on a keyboard and hope that something comes through the mashing. I don’t know if anything will, but I hope and I hope and I hope some more once I am done with the hoping.

There are other things out there that are more important than this right now but I want to make an early start. Perhaps if I do I can get back into the routine of not doing everything far into the evening which I feel is hampering my ability to do much. There’s also my sitting here and procrastinating that doesn’t help. It’s something I need to spend more time trying to push through as I allow it to happen far too often and it’s just not helping.

I also don’t want to get too deep into my lack of being more proactive, but here we are.

So I sit here and I try to get going on the going on and perhaps it is working but I am not seeing much result, but of course what I am writing at the present moment is the result. There will be other things that happen today and so those will need to see care and attention but right now it’s just this. It’s this that I am mashing out and I will get it all done and at the end of it I will think it’s a load of messy crap as it’s just thoughts that I’ve prattled on about far too many times at this point in my life, but that’s what I’m doing. It’s sort of warming up and perhaps I can build off of this throughout the day. I don’t know if I actually can, but maybe I can. I’ll just have to see what happens.

Maybe I won’t and instead I’ll not see a thing as there will be other things that will hold my attention and… I’m not going down that path. I’m going to try and choose another path. I’m gonna roll up the hill and then I’ll get to the top and wonder as to why I thought that was a good idea, but at least the view will be nice and I’ll be somewhere away from where I usually am and so I’ll be able to return with the experience ad see how it affects things, but that’s for later. Right now it’s all about the staying exactly where I am.

The time it took to write five-hundred words: 05:43:89

It’s probably better that I’ve churned this out now as there’s less pressure on me to get things done at this particular moment. The writing isn’t good but it’s sort of a springboard for right now, I think.